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2006-05-12T15:34:00.000+08:00

i've shifted. click here

2006-05-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

WANG XU. WANG XU. WANG XU.
where are u? i'm afraid i need u like wad happen tt tym.
with you there, i feel so much better......

why is it tt when i feel like crying, u will be in my mind?
why is it tt i'm always willing to listen to u?

2006-04-20T15:58:00.000+08:00

the song "welcome to detriot city" makes me HIGH!!!! haha xD i've been a good lil kid. i never say anything bad this few days.. other than the fact tt she's super tall and is blocking MY view. argh. wadever. i've been very nice. when there's no peer tutoring, i told her when i can choose to ignore it. when she dropped her pen in the aeroponic farm, i took it up for her so she can run into shelter faster. i dun ask for rewards or smt. but at least being polite to me is wad i deserve isnt it.....? wadever. i dun wanna care.

2006-04-14T15:45:00.000+08:00

oh yes. we ARE wrong and she's ALL right. we simply jus dun understand wad's she gg thru. we blamed her for everything isolating her abusing her bullying her molesting her u termed isolating when everyone's talking to u? u termed abusing when people jus make fun of your name? u termed molesting when it's jus a friendly pat? u termed bullying when we didnt do anything? YOU ARE ABSURB. isolating is when no one talks to you. tt's to me when there's smt wrong with you! or else y ppl arent talking to you? abusing is some sort of sexual abuse in this case. cm'on la, where's any bruises? go see doctor and see whether u have been rape or something. molesting is when somebody touches your sex organs or smt la. not jus on your shoulder. bullying is when ppl cornered you to somewhere and make u do smt. is this wad she wants? then fine. i've given her the attention she needs and wad she want. and it's fucking enough. if u arent happy in 4e3, then jus transfer out of this class stop playing fun with everyone's emotions. it's not at all funny when ppl apologise jus stop laughing as if the whole world owes u anything if u didnt know, WE DUN. i've NEVER seen andrew in this state neither was fan ye neither was chiben neither was jun wei i've NEVER thought u were like this i simply thot u were a simple person yet you arent u do know how to hide ur true self! i dun owe you a single thing. u arent happy then get your mother your father you sister wadever down the sch. i dun give a fucking damn to wad u do call police when i jus ignore u? fine. go ahead. u tink i will be nice to you from tt day onwards? NO! i wont. i simply will jus distance myself away from you there's smt wrong with your character! even if ur sister is coming to flood my blog for wadever things u tink i'm afraid? NO! i wont i'll jus simply block your IP add and make me even hate you all! u tink reasoning with me is enough? it's NOT. who is the real victim man?

2006-04-10T16:51:00.000+08:00

sigh sigh SIGH!!! my parents seemed to be quarreling every now and then. *hais* from young i badly hoped to be borned in a happy fam. you guys may be thinking i'm happy already. but i'm NOT. i simply detest going home each day.. esp if my parents are at home. whenever my dad drinks, it'll be worst. he simply let alchohol get control of him. smashing things seemed to be like a common thing he would be doing on mon, fri, sat AND sun. and like hello, it's 4 day perweek. i dunnoe how the hell my mum can even endure him man. yes, i would say, he's a great dad to be. but i simply detest it when he smokes at home; worst still get drunk and create a stir at home. i've no offence to those who drinks, but i hate it when they starts to throw things around, shouting, and on top of it, using authority to pressurise me! my mum seemed to be rather pissed off as well. then they start to quarrel. even my siblings arent spared as well. i dun see why my dad should scolding me and my sis when we were jus doing our own stuffs at 10.30. he's getting more and more unreasonable. fcuk. i rather to be in a normal family. without ppl who smoke, drinks or gamble in my house! #%$#^%*$^@^%*& i hate to blog this kind of shit and rubbish in my blog. i'm sorry to ppl like ritz. =( but i choose to blog rather then having a head-on quarrel with my friends and family.

2006-04-07T17:38:00.000+08:00

i'm so PISSED off! please do not take me for granted. i'm a living thing too. i've got feelings. great;; u win i tink i've overdid something wrong. i was sorry for tt but i dun seemed to change anything. BLAH. junwei asked me a question and he got me to tink of certain things. i tink i'm a super wierd person. i may b talking to somebody, but it doesnt mean tt i'm willing to talk. sometimes is simply tt a person talk to me and i jus replied. i tink i still need to have basic manners. xD i tink someone have misunderstood me again. i dun feel like saying out. i dun wan another big even to happen again. i admit: i'm really sick and tired of all this things. i jus goanna sit back and relax for things to happen now. not looking for things to happy nowadays. finally, i managed to listen to wad mdm lim had said in physic lessons and it's for 1 full hour! yay! i tink why i've been failing physics is because i dun listen in class and when i dun understand certain concepts, i dun ask her =) thanks cindy for the balloon!! <3

2006-04-05T19:46:00.000+08:00

arghh. i didnt manage to get out today. i was supposed to meet up with justin. but so sad, he was still in sch. so being super super bored, i went to pop to get the stuffs i needed. then i jus realised i spend 7bucks. damn it la. i'll soon be declared bankcrupt. with so many birthday tt's coming up.. i'm really broke. got sooo pissed off with my retarded dumb fren, wangxu and his good buddy, dennis. nearly have a quarrel with wx for spilling everything out to dennis! in addition he even told him so much things that never even happen! i got so angry tt i even ~~slap~~ him twice =X so sorryyy pal.. but the funny thing is tt we always ended our day well and fun! xD in the end we still walk home la. so not much worries though =) i was still getting very irriated by jonathan and terence bloody comments on me. why cant they get a life and stop all this bloody rumours. and they arent funny at all. ~~wadthefuck~~. i realised tt in jus in this stupid year i've change rather alot. good changes bad changes? i dunnoe. i jus needed to study harder. tt's all i shld and mus be thinking right now i supposed. but wad the heck has i been doing.........? humph. preserving till the end.

2006-04-03T17:36:00.000+08:00

mayb things ARE going to change for the better with justin by my side!! jus his words and stuffs. i dunnoe whether to treat him as a brother or wad. he's so much older than me. he's nice i admit. better than "him" (a person who i've always treated as a brother) p/s: the "him" i've always been refering in my blog is simply jus sm1 i've treated jus like a buddy. mayb less. he's not like my bf/crush or something. (look down) i looked back at my old post i've in the aug last yr it's been nearly 8 months. i've wasted 8 bloody months. i've enough of it as well. i jus realised u werent even my type jus tt u've done too much for me u make me feel like i was yours and you were mine but it wasnt u were simply jus someone i look up to jus like an elder bro. come on, jus let's buck up for our o level. it's not the time to be in a bgr. xD i jus realised i've change too much ever since last aug too. i turned frm a quiet girl to somehow-attention-seeker. damn it la.. i jus wanna study hard........... can i do it......? *i asked god as i prayed each night.

2006-03-31T21:48:00.000+08:00

so many shitty homework. amath. emath. geo. BLAH. y mus we jus slock for sec 4? grrx. anyway, i promise my cussin i'll blog abt him. xD 22MALE. POLICE-to be looking for >16 FEMALE AVE LOOKING heeeeeeex

2006-03-28T22:18:00.000+08:00

my week hasnt been any nicer. i've been really trying to smile but i swear it hurts when i laugh it doesnt mean i'm happy. but yet when i cry, it doesnt mean i'm sad either -kinda ironic. but wad this is wad i'm gg thru.

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i asked wangxu questions which i believed it sounded wierd 4 him it's abt kissing.. =P and abt guys of cos!! or else why i'll ask him? dennis has been the one tt noticed smt's seriously wrong abt me.. thanks pal.. and thanks for giving me suggestions and stuffs. but sigh sigh sigh. i dun even know wad's wrong with me how shld i even go abt answer you when i dunnoe even know wad's wrong with me? i'm tink i'm kinda stuck inside my own world. or perhaps i jus refused to get out..

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the oral today sux alot it's abt parent and child relationship. it's 30 marks lorr. but i dun do v well in this.. and the reading.. i misread a lot.. but thankful.. i get 8pts =)

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i'm trying to talk to u agin.. but i tink it's still tough i still cant forget wad had happened in the past. but there's no hurry i tink.

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picca's not leaving till nxt week! and i'm damn happy abt it though there'll b more torture doing corrections but i tink seeing her each day is already enough. =)

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oh btw, i've went to TNPS tt day! it's nice seeing miss tan again! i really miss her i tink after o level i'm gg there to help her! *no words can describe* and to esther: i'm sorry abt wad has happened xD

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shld i ask mdm yap to teach me chinese?? so long never see her already then she suggested to teach me.. hais.......... but it's FOC leh feel so pai seh see how loh.. ask my mum 1st lorr!!

2006-03-26T20:40:00.000+08:00

~~i feel sucky i feel sick~~ when frens have problems i dun seemed to be able to help them when i have problems i dun seemed to find ppl who can help me they are jus as busy as ever out of a sudden i really miss justin at least we dun ahve much probs and he makes me happy at least when i'm with him i wont think of any problems i'm facing he makes me happy. really. when i jus wan x x x's smile and encouragement i jus dun seemed to find but justin's diff. he's jus like a big brother to me at least, he knows how to hong me. and he knows how to make me smile. but mayb i've not been loving xxx too much or mayb i'm jus reluctant to let go of xxx b'cos ...... i dunnoe la mayb i jus treat him as an elder bro he seemed to change. she seemed to change. everybody seemed to change. or mayb i was the one tt changed? i questioned everything but never myself why why why? i jus dun feel good. my tonight sleep is burnt again i supposed.

2006-03-26T17:05:00.000+08:00

to that wadever star. have the guts to write your own name lor not as if u dun have or smt l-o-s-e-r !! so wad if my frens walk away or smt. it doesnt concerns u wad. so shut the fuck up la u tink u are so great by tagging anonymously? let me tell u, u arent. so jus get lost if u dun like the things here like hello, i never force u to read at my blog or smt so dun come la it's MINE blog. NOT YOURS. so wadever i like to blog is like MY problem so did i ask u to comment? you wan to comment then write ur name la. i hope: when u eat, u choke. when u drink water, they come out frm ur nose. when u cross the road, u kena buang by the car. when u have exam, u have a blackout. when u wished for smt to happen, they never do. when u are in a competition, u lose. when u run, u fell down and got a scar on ur leg. when u play a sport, u injured urself badly. when u take o lvl, u get a straight 40 pts. when u wear contact lens, ur eyes got swollen till u cant even see things. when u are sms-ing, ur phone simply drop itself down and broke into pieces. when u are paying for any bills or any money related things, u lost ur wallet. when u are in love, you get dumped. when u have a math test, ur calculator gets out of batteries. when u think ur fren can be trusted, they jus spread rumours abt u.

2006-03-24T22:14:00.000+08:00

MR D (QUEK) SAYS HE HAS BEEN READING MY BLOG! argh. was kinda shocked when he suddenly talked to me.. like soooo long never see him already. HE PLAYS MAPLE omg. so old liao.. HAHA. jkjk. =) and he told me he act fierce =.=" like wad happened in class hehe. i rather him to be teaching than ~~mdm yasmin~~ i noe it sounded wierd/rude wad ever but at least.. haha. personal reason anyway. mr lai suggested to play majong aft we grad kinda like OMG it's mr lai leh can imagine tt kind of face? know gardening, loves flower, see chio bo leh somemore ask us play majong HAHA (i feel mean!) >.< my class ppl say i'm short and i feel depressed. but at least someone say i'm NOT =) and i'm happy cos at least i'm ard typical singaporean height. not shorter. =D my book was sent to the PUPIL DEVELOPMENT DEPT oh wtf. it's like i complain so much things abt the sch imagine it was sent to our dear mr neo, mrs seah or mr bang? wth.. grr... shld i say "thank you" to mr lai? i goanna miss ms picca.... my teacher since sec 1 *hais* i hope everything goanna fine. she has been so good to me. seeing she gg to other sch definately saddened me like how i didnt get to see her in 2 weeks or smt ='( ='( i goanna be a good kid. i jus wanna study.. well =)

2006-03-23T21:45:00.000+08:00

i felt being cheated upon ; being lied about. you dun seemed to be the one i knew. u changed alot.. really i'm sorry but i have to say i choose to love the one you used to be words might really hurt.. but there's nth i could do cos these are facts tt i really want u to know.. but i supposed u didnt know i was refering to u. i'm sorry. i really was. class was still as noisy as ever. no one really bothered abt exams anyway, chem was totally no kick. i study like so much then i jus realised it's jus mcq.. ='( mdm norsham arent in tnps ald ='( and i missed ms tan so much and i simply missed pri sch life! in fact i missed everyone there! but too bad, it's jus my batch's teachers and staffs! (like the p, vp, om...) haha!

2006-03-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

i'm NOT transparent mind u! ~~u have really changed though i'm hard to admit this fact~~ i guess i jus have to admit this it not realli like i care la. but having ppl who starts to say all the bad things abt u when they blog; but treat u exceptionally good in sch. wow! i tink u mus be darn good. x) wad ever lor. u win. things are jus a lil better tis week. kinda sudden la. but aiya. i cant b bothered.

2006-03-19T15:35:00.000+08:00

yoz yoz yoz! back to posting.. tmr's sch goanna starts again (which means no more slacking, fun and play.. mainly jus studying and perhaps jus slacking during weekends..) went to escape like 2 days ago? was intending to update one.. when blogger was down for maintaince.. grr =.= and can anyone believe i saw esther chua???!!! so unlucky? geeX =) she bo xim one.. never ask me out! but i was thinking of asking her out one lor.... cos i thot it was like jus me, ting and ch.. so didnt who know, suddenly got jean and yy.. btw, i jus paid $4 for the fun! haha.. (it was supposed to be $16.5) luckily jus $4... cos 5 stations cannot play..and it wasnt really worth $16.50. and oh, we went bowling too! it rawks xD cos i got the highest score! hehex =) but my sis say her worst score was somewad like tt too ='( i tink i goanna bowl with my sis soon! yay! i realised tt my fear for height had came back again. haiz. my dad got my mum a new phone!!! grrx. both of them jus changed during the dec.. now they both changed again! my dad to N90 and my mum to N6680! NOT FAIR. (my mum doesnt even know how to sms; why need to change phone!!!!) i jus realised there's THIS person who arent happy abt the things i've done. fine. jus do ur own things and dun mind my business la. whether i'm happy or not doesn even bother YOU wad. not happy then jus get lost la. NOBODY is asking YOU to love ME or smt. unless YOU are plainly JEALOUS of ME. sick of me then jus dun BOTHER ME. as if i'm oblige to talk to YOU like that. YOU was the one tt was talking to ME in the first place; not the other way around. i didnt even ask frm YOU a favour or asking YOU to do anything for ME, so why shld i be giving YOU a nice face when YOU keep asking ME to do things which arent in MY way and the things which I dun like. and for god sake, YOU think i'm good to YOU? pls tink twice, i'm NOT a dog or something for YOU to order abt, listening to wadever shit YOU give out. at least i DIDNT do things which are illegal.. like gg to a guy's room, locking the door behind you. letting a guy all over YOU. letting them do those disgraceful stuffs on ur own body. YOU are a woman; a half adult already. not like some kind of "chicks" in geylang. yet YOU doesnt even know wad it means by loving urself. you simply disgrace the face of all women! LOSER! i know more things than wad u thought i didnt know. haa. xD u didnt even know someone had betray you by telling me all those things. u tink i care? obviously not. but blogging this would let the whole wide world know, how disgraceful u were, how cheap u protray urself. by the way, i'm gg back to tnps next week, most prob fri or smt? any ex-tnps ppl wan to go? or any tpss ppls? i'm finding ms tan there... =) her b'day's coming...

2006-03-15T09:02:00.000+08:00

the feeling of frenship 1yr 10days ago was definately different frm now. -we seemed to b very distant now. i'd like to thank u for the fun we once shared though we now seemed to b in different tracks now. u'll b someone i'll rmb the fun and joys we once shared. perhaps u dun share the same thots as me... but i'd say i really love u for the things u did for me.. i uploaded this pic not to embarassed ya. but to tell the world how thankful i'm for knowing u. (pink and purple;; our colours. but somehow there's a "blue" in between us.. i dunnoe who's tt barrier. mayb thing's goanna change for the better soon!)

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2006-03-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

no one really bothered my presence. be where i'm in. i stick out too much. why shld i even b in this world when i'm not needed? i can only find peace and happy when i'm alone. things changed so much in jus 3 mths. i used to love fun, being together with my frens. but now it wasnt. mayb b'cos i used to have big jon, esther chua but now we seemed to b gg diff directions mayb frm e start i'm jus having gd frens and never best frens now we seemed to b distant frm one another tt's y things changes mayb things'll change for the better soon.

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i've lost interest today. i'm NOT transparent or like a piece of glass! i pretended to b happy, to luff and to smile when i'm not happy at all. can anyone come to me? asking me wad's wrong? no. no. no one can. nor did anyone bothered. i wished sm1 jus scold me, tell me not to pretend anymore. pretending is a tough job. smt u have to do each day for me. tinking of new lies, finding more masks to hide my real self it's tough. it really is. but who knew wad it feels to b? who can come to me, telling me to take off tt face mask of mine? to lead me out of this misery. to cheer me up when things are down. i wished i could control my life i wished i could control e way things go but i jus cant. wtf.

2006-03-07T21:43:00.000+08:00

life wasnt fair. say i'm sensative/petty wadever. i hate it when ppl starts to say bad things abt ME. especially when i declare (or rather think and regard) them as super good (best) fren. is this wad i'm SUPPOSED to get? it wasnt jus like a day or two. it was like often and i'm trying my best to ignore all those. yet it jus continuted. wth. i've practically nothing much to say. you commented each and every single thing which i used to b confident of. u could b the one tt comment me. but i can never do the same. and i've decided. as long as there's anything to do with jerry, i shall jus heck care. i take the teasing as jus purely FUN. seems like he didnt. fine. i found a new fren today........... HWEE HUAN my today's confidant =) i told her every single thing abt me; my entire life e only secrets tt only 3 people knew. and now her. jus me, des, *cant say who* knew... not even ah chua knew........ sorryy. why is it like all the guys are jus practically the same? i dun like it. though they claimed tt nan ren bu huai, nu ren bu ai.. but it seems abit too off hor..... so many ppl are saying tt to me! why are they ogling over the sex video? all of them were jus concentrating their vision on "tammy" why wasnt anyone commenting at the guy who's having sex with her? grrrrrr..... poor gal.. i wonder how's she gg to get out..... and to face to world... i'm starting to miss ms picca....... ='( but she goanna leave in june... i would like to ask, whether she tink it's fair for us......... but oh well. wad more can i ask frm her, a teacher tt has taught me for 4 yrs. but teaching in a better sch definately is better for her. but wad abt us? no offence though (= i may b aiming for a JC. so to further my dream........ of becoming a chu se chinese teacher! NYJC? TPJC? cant make up my mind....... JC road may have been planned........ left my results.... but wad abt POLY road? if i wan to go biochem/biotech, wad shld i do after tt? to be a scientist? wad if i cant even go uni? jus waste my life like my sis? *hais* i dunnoe wad to do la. jus get my results first lor..... to jonathan~ i wan u to get well... SOON. i hope, i can b the one tt can help u thru this whole process............. though u still have SM, ah CHUA etc. perhaps y i can talk so much with him was tt i have different thinking with SM......... mayb tt's y. i dun stress ppl too much X)) mayb i'm jus myself.. who sat at my place in chem lab? we got contamination twice already lor. wtf. i dun enjoy doing so many times jus to find out it WAS contaminated. it resulted ME not having enough time to do 3 times. argh. and can anyone believe it? i can dream abt mr lai? HAHA. and i thot i saw his twin bro.. but he didnt have........ MR LAI GOT AN ELDER SIS? can any1 believe it? HAHAHA.......................

2006-03-03T23:07:00.000+08:00

DARN. felt so pissed off with the fucking rumours. stop all the "peach" things can? JONATHAN the meanie pok! cheers (=

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for me, i didnt know tt BEST friend will b the one tt tease u the most (in front) of my other frens. insulting me as much as YOU can. always trying to pull me dwn and making me feels lousy. to b making me angry and so pissed off jus because of YOUR insults makes u feel better? wad abt me trying them onto YOU. YOU wont b happy either. so spare me frm all those. yet YOU expect me to be there for YOU each and every single day, without fail. always needing care, love and everything. i can never be the one tt bullies YOU, tease or anything. YOU may excel in certain things whereas i'm NOT. thus, i'm DIFFERENT from YOU. stop thinking as if YOU are like so great. i didnt compare my good points with you... i swear i dont. has life always been fair? my stand is NO; it never will b. YOU wanted me to b there. and i did. YOU wanted sm1 to lean on. i was there. yet YOU was the one tt kept secrets frm me YOU was the one tt tease, joke and always making a mockery of me! there IS a limit to everything.

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the progress report grades are out. and they sux like shit. having all like 50+ isnt good in any sense. i needed more than 24h a day. less school hours might helped. SOMEONE claims tt IT can do better in loci test than any other ppl in MY class. having to attend 1 lesson with mdm ho can cover wad we learn in 1 week. i can rmb so clearly how IT tell one of my fren, I STUDY 1DAY CAN ALREADY.. U ALL NEEDED 1WEEK. isnt IT damn show-off? but nvm, IT was like the LOWEST in class? SO MUCH FOR SHOWING-OFF. try more of skipping sch. cos i think it helps to pull down marks. of which, u shall b made a mockery by ME. of cos, i cant wait for this day.

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junwei daddy, u rawks. saying all those things in in-focus chinese. those words of acting cute, actiions are things tt can make me laugh. the way IT holds IT's pen. the way IT talks. LOL. and ben kok kor, for ignoring IT fucked up attitude.. esp the day we went suntec city.. u know wad i mean (= abt the seats...

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btw, i'm finally changing back to HOME tuition. which means i dun have to travel till the central of s'pore jus for 4h of tuition and a break. but it's gg to b ex! i shall do ALL my tuition work mr lee has given me.. and makes him less hair of cos!

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damn banana! phone doesnt "shake", it "vibrates". even for a person who sucks in english also knows tt the term used is vibrates, not shake. OMG. ur england must b damn powerful. and i dun believe crying does helps. cos when ppl knows the truth, u shall b the one being despised. (=

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is justin and me kinda fated? seeing each other at different place after 1h is definately surprising. i went to eat and go out after tt. yet, he was supposed, to b gg shopping and he went home... and i saw him tabao food an hour later! oh no.. des say is i ji zuo duo qing... mayb it's true? haha.............. joke la!

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saw lots of ppl td! like senior Kelvin Yap, Kingston Khoo, Cheryl Wang, WanLing, Melissa Jie, Jolie and of cos, Justin Yang. suddenly, i kinda missed them.... the seniors and the ones who grad.. other than justin.. hais.

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take care, my dear qin ai de mdm sim. (=

2006-02-27T19:25:00.000+08:00

i treated this guy with my upmost respect. but never would i get the same due respect i'm supposed to get. wad have i done wrong? 2 people asked the same questions; me and another person. but i dun get the same answer. the other person get was a very polite answer. whereas mine's a very scastastic one. do u even know wad u've done really hurts? i'm trying not to get petty over this kind of stuffs. but ur action pisses me off too much till i cant even try not to think. ^ dun u find it wierd tt i treat u better than other guys? ^ would u dare to say u didnt know i like u? ^ dun u find it wierd tt i'm always looking at u? or ur direction? ^ or did u simply acted blur abt all this? but now, i tink i'm slowly LOSING the love i used to have for u.................... mayb now, it's jus more of a sibling kind of love? but i jus cant seemed to forget the love i used to have for u. i'm trying.. to forget u...... but seeing u every weekdays... how shld i try not to see u? or shld i jus acted blur jus like wad u did to me? yes, i tink i shld jus do tt. solve all the bloody problems. jus so pissed off with YOUR actions. but yet i wasnt really angry. isnt it ironic? *sighs-shakes head* but why is it tt u r always listening to all my problems always there for me but u didnt even know i've been there for u..... waiting to help u but never did u know i jus wanted the day at the beach can tt ever happens again? i suppose NOT. but mayb after my o, i shall asked u out one day. mayb jus go there to listen to the sea waves.... to sit there watching the clouds to see the sea and simply to talk...... mayb... if till tt day i still cant forget u i might jus do tt.

2006-02-27T19:03:00.000+08:00

today i started my day pretty well X)) loves all the good things tt happen.. the good things... first: seeing this pri sch of mine (which really make my day well... imagine me choosing to walk to sch instead of switching bus??!!) second: i got his number already!!! X)) *cheers and claps* third: passing my geography test wif like an A when i expected me failing..? forth: not bringing my emath assignments when in 1st period she said she needed it later.. then after tt she changed her mind..... no need to hand in. (or else i've to "enjoy" the scenery outside class..) fifth: i got 33/50 for my chinese....... is it finally i hit the "30" mark... sixth: my mum's not at home....... no naggings! *yay* seventh: i get to eat out! but bad things do happen too......... first: getting to walk to sch alone! but it's okay. second: my peanuts got "stolen".. my class guys share them ard the class.... third: i thot mdm ho needed the assignments. have got a scare.. forth: 2 gals cried in class......... my clicks smmore leh.... =( fifth: having peer tutoring sixth: not getting to eat recess......... cos of mdm ho *argh* seventh: getting tease by chinhui in kfc! sighs* dunnoe is good or bad la... MORK EXAMS ARE COMING UP SOON!!! argh. dun wan to study anymore......

2006-02-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

anyways there is obviously SOMEBODY tt has been visiting my blog FREQUENTLY out of a sudden so many blog visits starts..... as if i dun know who like tt arent "it" SLOW? the post is like has been there so long L-O-S-E-R post it in where ever u like cos i dun believe in propanganda HAHA. CHIM (: hmm.. btw. USE SARCASM ON ME AND I'M GG TO MAKE SURE U GET BACK FOR ALL THIS u shoot me one sentence, i'm gg to make sure u get back at least 5! obviously, it's all abt me. so wad? true frens are the ones tt matters i dun need any fake ones. unlike u u have been surrundered by all those P-A-T-H-E-T-I-C is the word i'm giving it back to u

2006-02-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

tests and test each week. like not fun at all lor. being labelled as "healthy" isnt good at all.. i dun wan anymore red marks by the end of feb/mar i wan to pass all my subj at least like C5? and more distinctions of cos but it's hard arh jus goanna give my best shot for this bloody o lvl exam and most prob go POLY then i wont have to work so hard ald. HEHE (: so far, flunked so many subj.. ss source base question... 49% my amath 2 tests, both on differentiation. one's 48% and the other 43% failed physics. think it's 40% but i passed my eng.. 53% emath.. 92% chinese.. 57% geo.. tink it's 57% chem.. 57% when i can get 70%.. humph. careless mistakes.. is like wad the heck lorr failing amath test when it's the best subj of mine I'M NOT GOING TO FORSAKE ANY CHAPTS i got to pushed myself further. to motivate myself the subjects i "passed" are like only borderline i got to work harder and yet harder...... can someone helped me in my source base? i totally sux in tt.... i usually dun noe wad the heck the cartoonist is trying to say and my amath............ how can i fail? and dropped so much grades? i used to b an A1 student.. now i'm a failure MORK EXAMS ARE COMING UP SOON all on wed.. no more wasting time to sit and talk crap in assembly. MORE EXAMS........ BLESS ME. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LULU!

2006-02-18T22:23:00.000+08:00

i would say this yr's celebration run is completely dumb. perphaps i wasnt in the mood of running or mayb mdm sim wasnt there? or is it tt my blisters hurts? i dunch noe. i hate doing/hearing things repeatedly each yr such as.. . running at bedok reservoir . listening 2 mr neo's phrase of "good morning all collegues and all tampinesians. LOOK up LISTEN up!" *sighs* how much more boring can e things get? mr lai WON the 1st in e male teacher's race and ms picca got the FORTH!!!!!!!! ermssssssssssssss (when she told me she doesnt wan to and feel like walking) c(= and my class won the novity race! mdm sim got no liang xin she left me jus running and she told me jus at the last moment when she has ald promise to run wif me? humph! this yr got no milo. ARGH! i LOVES cold milo =))) wad's wrong wif me? i'm ~~jealous~~ of her? and i ~~angry~~ wif ppl who mixes wif her? nobody knows; i too, doesnt know. yet my feelings and all my attitude changes day by day till today, i still doesn know when is my real self my moods are usually tempremental i can b the best person on earth u ever know yet i can b the person u'll dislike the most i can treat u like my close fren this moment and the nxt moment, things changes. i dunnoe y but tt's jus me accept me for who/wad i'm and not wad i'm not *CHEERS AND CLAPS*

2006-02-14T21:52:00.000+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE EVERYONE! perhaps i was expecting too much for a valentine? smt i DO fantasise alot and of which NONE r the same in real life i hate it when ppl starts asking me whether i'm giving fanye anything and whether he's givin me anything. firstly, it doesnt have to do wif anyone and secondly, why mus it b him? spare me the rumours. this yr's valentine was of much fun though buying presents for my besties became broke in the end. but it's ok cos... THEY R MY BESTIES! weee~ my clicks - chinhui, jingting, yuying, hwee huan, jean and ME (cindy wasnt there td) bought rose for mr lai!!! naming it as secret admirer~ wee wee wee! then big jon also got give.. never write name somemore.. so qiao. went tuition. sian but was real fun. mayb b'cos jus c them like once a week only ma.. i got a shock of my life when dennis and wang xu gave me rose! OMG. but it's super ex lor. $8 for a rose? to me, it's the thoughts that count ma. but luckily, i bought chocolates for the 2 of them.. heng arh.. luckily dennis ask me to buy choc for him ma. then i decided to buy for the 2 la. who knows, they appeared wif roses for me.. jingting lao gong's present lil bear for sujun pooh for des rose for esther (in which, she forced me to buy =P) the same rose.. the same one again... for darling angelina, twinie chinhui.. same one, wif a star in the middle.. for huimin hand-made rose.. by wang xu's fren.. shall upload in the rose frm wang xu and dennis in the nxt post.. elifie might b coming over my hse for 2 mths. it's goanna b fun. after all, this is the 1st time mummy's letting a dog into my hse! i tink elifie's gg b cute, from the way da jie judge it, it's like WOW! and elifie doesnt have lots of hairs (for which i'm sentive to tt) and it doesnt bite. +) i'm looking forward to tis yr mass run. not the runnning part though. it's the part where i'm sticking wif mdm sim... hope she doesnt mind =) i simply love her to bits and pieces +) sometimes i wonder to myself was tt true love i was mentioning? or was it jus a coincident jus b'cos u help me? or was it tt i jus treat u like an elder bro jus like justin? *sighs* sometimes i jus cant b bothered wif things for which no matter wad it is, my o lvl is still the pirority cheers and claps*

2006-02-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

the o lvl results are OUT! i wonder how melissa they all did. wanted to ask her; but she's left when i'm in the hall. i miss her; miss her so much. the days where we joke, along wif evon, ken kor, . . . the first few seniors i knew, the first gan kor and jie i've in sch. td's nxt yr will b either my proudest moment in this sch; or mayb my worst or even death day. *sighs* all grad classes, ganbate!! all teachers tt came into the class td was shit; totally shit. (<-- mdm ho's words) they started pressuring us abt 2004's batch and 2005's batch. but wad the heck has it got to do wif us. sians. mdm ho was like in cold sweat? then she so sotong td.. jus b'cos of of the 4e3 (2005) the sec1s came into the library td. wif the new sec3s too. it's somehow craps. alfred's back. *gosh* but WE got the most intake. out of the 10 sec 1s, there are 7 tt came on fri. good or bad? sians. i tink i'll b the only early senior on tt day. OMG. without des = death for me. i dunnoe how to communicate wif them. and i've a super poor memory, i cant rmb their names well. tyk's sis is here; same day as us. she's soooo cute. so unlike the bro. HAHA. =) MDM SIM is booked my ME ON 18-O2-2OO6 WEE~ we are gg to go tgt; the most i promise to wait for her if she's tired. (but she claims tt she hasnt been running for 1yr..) but one thing it's unfair; we came back tgt last yr and i got a 69 position and she got a THIRD in the teacher's race. wad is this. hais. i tink i goanna miss her the moment i grad from this sch. after all, she has been one of the fun teachers i know. but she wasnt teaching me in sec3 or 4.i tink i'll come back to tpss frequently if i'm free. jus like me visiting tnps? to look for mr seow and ms marlene tan. mdm norsham has ald left the sch.. i tink. oh freak. i tink i'm getting fat. eat; sleep; play; fun; more hw is currently my life. i lack time in tv watching; gaming; and even to exercise. tink i shld find more time to work out and burn off my calories. =) mayb working out at lulu's gym? c how it goes then.

2006-02-09T18:03:00.000+08:00

can sm1 kill tt bitch in my class? she's f*cking irriating. first. she starting saying me. -> she started telling ppl. I was the one who wanted to do all the class committee. she continuted adding, "she dun like to do meh? i thought she like". TO me, it's more of tt "harlo, who likes to do same things for exactly 2 whole year?" I dun. and pls la, stop assuming things which i've never done or say it. second. SHE talks too much in class. -> and it continutes for as long as a class time. and it NEVER stops. SHE thinks SHE's gd in maple when she's seriously nt at all. SHE simply loves AC and LOVES to AA. *sighs* third. SHE keeps pushing all the blame onto me. such as saying words which will definately makes her off the hook. and tt SHE often blames others for things tt was wrong; and never reflect whether she's wrong anot? fourth: SHE doesnt know grammar! OMG. go primary sch la. there's tampines pri jus beside tpss. get ur ass off this sch. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. WHO ARE U TO COMMENT ON MY LIFE GET UR OWN LIFE AND STOP HARRASSING OTHERS

2006-02-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

omg. this's yr cny has been so hertic. day 1: go my grandma's hse day 2: last min suggestion for every1 to come my hse (6th grand-uncle coming my hse) day 3: go shliea aunty's hse day 4 - day 6: go sch -boring days lie (holis mood) day 7: enjoy life! go fren's hse day 8: go sharon aunty's hse wells, it's fun la. but it's quite tirring to walk ard. let me elaborate on day 7! went to yuying's hse 1st. play there so long like 3.5 h cos we waiting for lulu.. somemore play scrabble, play cards abit. taught yy how to play.. then lulu came along. went ch's hse. we v late. so in the end never saw ch's mum. cos she got to work! but we saw her jie and kor. SHE'S FINALLY NT THE SAME AS HER! lols. but well got 2 red packs, cos her sis married le. and her mum's too.. wee~ gamble alot. win $1.9. not alot but it's the fun that it contains! then we go MY hse. gamble. then i start lose $$. boo. bad luck at home =( after tt got to rush to jean's hse.. jean's hse super bigg. shocked man. didnt expect.. her hse LOTs of deco. mus b hard work.. her mum looked so alike like her!!! =) her bro also gamble wif us. then i lose lose lose money. alot leh. so in the end lost abt $3. after tt went to lulu's hse. we had fun~! saw her rm. so nice... good view *can pio guys!!* i still can rmb which block she live! i've such a gd memory~ hehe. shld b tt's all.. blog more details some other days. sleeping le~ nights

2006-02-03T20:46:00.000+08:00

why is it tt all the co chair have to suffer for everything tt's wrong? for me, year 2005 has never been a happy time for me, now it seems tt year 2006 wont b a happy year for est. and mayb for me too. at least she's having a chair tt is supportive of her. (so bloody unlike me) jus tt only uncle lai doesnt know. wad the heck. yes, mr lai has always been a nice, friendly teacher for me. but somehow i feel he did not see the actual situaition as he's nt seeing us in most of the lessons. there might b some biasedness though. i'm quite upset-ed by this. i dun understand why mus ppl do things jus to get others' attention? jus to let them know they did jus the surface job but not the rest? or is it taking some1 work and say it's their work? wow! this world's so great. bla. this dear esther: yes, this world IS unfair. life has always been like this. wad u expect? lols.

2006-01-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

angry. sad. depressed. irriated. tt's my mood for today. WAN TO KPKB THEN GET LOST. I DUN GIVE FACE ANYMORE. TAG W/O UR NAME AND I'LL BLOCK STRAIGHT I DUN CARE ALD READ FOR INTEREST NOT TO CONDEMM ever since she's back there arent any peace. and she is fcukin noisy. nt i wan to say tis but it's a fact. "EVELYN ALWAYS SPEAK THE TRUTH IN BLOGGING" <-- tt's the fact +) i thot the days she arent here were like 1 week ald. but it's only 3 days.. wow! the world mus have been spining for me these 3 days. but sad to say, happy days doesnt last. oh wells. nvm. i've my fair share of fun =) got to b ps by big jon. esther gg home. so i went home wif her, afterall we live so near. i REGRET doing tis. never did i ever know it was a bigg mistake of my part. i thought i've giving up on her. i thot there wont b this day when i'd cry over her again. but i was wrong. i failed wad i'm supposed to do. thruout the whole bus journey, i was there ald controlling my tears, tinking i finally can b the once strong me i was but no. i was very wrong. wad the heck have i done wrong in my previous life to deserve this treatment? and at the tender age of fifteen reaching sixteen? jus when i finally c light in my life? jus when i finally got over the truma in pri 3? jus when i thot i can trust and believe girls? any way, b'cos of her, * i learn how to hate some1 to extreme * i got to know how ppl can get things thru underhand methods * i understood fully wad it means by peng weis (and grow to hate tt) * i know wad it feels to c ur work taken by her and said it's hers * i know wad it means by noise pollution * i learn how irriating a person can get * i know wad extra means (as in 3rd party) in a relationship * i dun noe whether to trust girls anot * i know wad it means by flirting * i know wad it means by putting words into ppl mouth * i finally got to know my limit of being angry * i finally can scold a person in full vigularities and i mean it * i've seen how a person can scold a teacher (oh wells) * i know wad it means by the term "hyprocrites" * i saw thru the scene of acting (and i hate ppl who acts!) * i hate ppl who lie to me * i hate to b backstabbed (cos i finally know how much it hurts) * i got to know wad it's "attention-seekers" * i know y copy cats are so irriating isnt she fantastic? or is it great? it's up to u to decide =) use the words u like +) to dear estherCHUA: sorry abt tt super fake smile. i already tried to smile.. even though i know they r completely fake. . didnt manage to help u wif ya probs but instead i'm a burden to u. to big jon: i dun noe wad the heck is on. i'm jus caring abt est rite? i dun c the need of saying f* off and all those. I'M A GIRL; NOT A DOLL FOR U TO DISCARD HERE AND THERE. and btw, i'm NOT biased against her in any ways. and stop saying i zhen dui her when i never, when i'm stating a fact (which consist of evidence). if she didnt done anything wrong, then y would i b so angry wif her? anyways, i'm nt scolding anyone. oh, IF the person it's guility.. but no apologies for me pls, cos i dun need to befriend wif bitches. =) my mum doesnt like me wid bitches. and of cos, i intend to b a good lil gal. +) i learn my lessons on tt too. "once bitten, twice shy" i fully agrees wif this. but for me, it's not jus "twice shy", it's much more than tt.. been having a sh*t day. dun wan to blog ald. btw, stop calling me a bitch. (as in u mean it) i cant b bothered wif the rest but as for u. . . it's so diff my life begins spining wif u but somehow. i dun noe whether i realli like u anot my thoughts and feelings are kind of jubbled up i dun have the time to think abt it IF only i can stop the time thanks mr lai. he has been v encouraging in my PCCG bk! hahas. but y do i bully him by asking him to sing when he has sexy voice? but he's mean to me too. so we r quits! >.< eveLYN*

2006-01-23T17:38:00.000+08:00

schooling is boring nowadays. having to do the same things each day. studying, talking, walking, listening, eating. practically tt's all. jus tt we r learning the same things. i dun c the fun we r having anymore. every teachers came into the class and said you are taking the o lvl tis year!! (hello, who doesnt know?) they kept repeating the words into us. it's nt as though after a night seep we'd forget tt we r taking o lvl tis yr.. the words are ald drilled into me; asking every one to buck up. we already knows all that. please stop forcing us!!!! argh. somehow we r ald so stressed up wif all the sickening homeworks.. there arent even enough time to study. let alone for us to forget we r taking o lvl tis yr! some random pics i took.. the shoe i wore to s'pore poly. it's a 6cm high one. i'm taller than ivan ald.. LOLS. it's a pic taken in lib- we r slackers! the eeyore my sis bought for her fren but nt me!! argh! (focus on the eeyore instead of my table!) the shoe i bought for cny me! trying my best to smile. . even though it wasnt really a true one the shopping mall my studying room.. in train. i jus woke up.. haha jus checking to c if my hair is ok. . the one i took frm sp

2006-01-20T21:14:00.000+08:00

went to republic poly (13 o1 2oo6), nangyang poly (19 o1 2oo6) and temasek poly (2o o1 2oo6). i must say the best poly is the temasek.. the people are more fiendly, fun and the best is they will explain and talk more. as compared to e two others.. mus thank the 2 "da jie" who brings us ard the sch.. hahas... saw alfred.. but didnt talk.. cos i'm wif they all.. (siyi, chiping, hangyi, chinhui, yuying). it was quite fun la.. i'm nw considering whether to take biotech anot.. it's kinda fun.. but if i wan to b a teacher, i've got to go nie. which means the easier way out is nus. and to go nus, i need to go JC. the safer and best way.. oh no. JC.. it's like 12pts for good courses? *sighs* which is better now? i really love the way my class is right now. it's red.. (though i dun really like the colours..) 10 REASONS y i like my class ~ it's neat. (b'cos i'm the one tt arrange tables) ~ it's clean ~ it's very nice looking =) (i involve in the buying!!) ~ i tink it's the best decorated class.. (esp in G-ext) ~ the tables are wrapped up nicely ~ i have very nice teachers (who r very experience) ~ i have a lame but fun and strict form teacher (who likes flowers, pupple colour.. and he's only 55.9kg and quite tall.. HE'S A GUY.. mind u) ~ my classmates are GREAT. they arent bengs/lians =) ~ i have many good frens here.. chinhi, jingting, cindy, big jon, esther, hwee huan, chi ben, terence, . . . ~ i have a "palace" here. i'm da EMPRESS +) but y is there so many bad memories for me in this class too? y do i have to overcome so many things? y r there are so many walls for me to cross and to move ahead wif life. places i have to carry on and never to stop to rest. never to b left behind. y is there so many problems which i got to encounter at this stage of life? y do i do things which i've never done before.. like telling confess to HIM wad i shld never done in my entire life? i've NEVER DONE ANYTHING WRONG TOWARDS YOU FROM THE DAY I KNEW YOU TILL THE END OF THE DAY I SLASHED ALL OUR FRIENDSHIP TIES. can u say the same words too? i doubt so. anyways, GOOD LUCK TO THE NETBALLERS, BADMINTON PLAYERS AND THE BBALL TEAMS =D

2006-01-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

i'm realli in a good mood. not only there's NO noise pollution to my ears and i'm realli happy +) ur greeting really brights my day up. ty =) have got the FIRST phy test back marks still ok. but still can b better 1/2 a mark more to a1 so tis's still a nice start goanna chiong for last yr and tis yr work for ss also. it doesnt means tt last minute study cannot do well wad i dun understand wad u r giving me tt look. it's nt as if i cheated everything. i only ask the hz que and nt like copying ur whole paper so stop giving me tt look i'm angry and have got enough. nvm. i'm in a super good mood wells. FORGIVEN =) u r my best fren; my confident so y i care abt tis small thing? +)

i'm no longer the gal

who still yearn for ur presence

i've finally got it clear

no matter wad ur stand is

i still goanna make my o the priority

so if anything we wont blame each other. +)

but i still like ya =)

nvm.

dear ivan; hope everything's fine though i noe it's nt. tc lots =)

dear esther; I'M NT TELLING U THE STORY!!!!

2006-01-14T15:01:00.000+08:00

WHO IS THE DAMN ASS USING MY NAME IN MY BLOG AND ON DES ONE? so knn one. wanna die ar!!! anyway, if u tried again, u will know tt u cant tag in anymore cos u have been LIFE BANED by the 2 of us. so to everyone: dun do it cos it shall b the same situation. try me if u dun believe =)) this week have been a long week. lots of homework and infocus is starting on next week =((( ends at abt 3+ so no much worries. at first i thought it's 4.30.. but still i'm going home or the lib to study. dun even intend to go out aft sch. wed: we did the jobs things in lab. kinda boring.. but i chose teaching (pri/sec/jc) , chemist and police (the senior one!!!! do the crimes all those). but the matching exercise said i wasnt cut for all 3.. my abilities and my interest doesnt fit. heck care. i'm gg to choose one of it. cos i realli like all those.. but they said i'm cut for speech therapy etc. sians. thurs: went to concourse wif uncle lai (tt erms* our secret), twin, hidayah and farahdillah. it was quite fun ba.. but i can c tt we spent quite alot. i tink. uncle (aka big bro* winks) say only abt 60 but it's NOT i tink ard 80.. so we have decided on certain matters. fri: went to lib today. we r the slacking grp! i didnt do anything to lib. i jus slack ard.. and jus let the junior do all the stuffs. i'm such a CLEVER senior =)). we jus did our work.. but the lib assistant like wan ask to do things like tt.. then we say we got work to do =P btw, the indian rojak at blk 487 (i tink) is very nice =)) and me and esther love it =D and the drinks there.. i miss my seniors- melissa jie, evon yan, yiying, ken phoon kor, joyce lau, annabelle.

2006-01-07T16:29:00.000+08:00

it has been a week since my sch started. wells. lots of change. but still it's considered still nice. as far as i'm concerned of cos. we elected the new class comm. wells, it's a nice change. hidayah and esther chua. (we didnt force ppl wan. LOLS-mr lai's phrase) i'm nw a welfare manager. i cant deny the fact it's gg to sux alot.. i gt to oversee everythg like tt. *gosh* and i've got to organise trips, help shakina (facilities manager) and bla. now there is still the cleanest and best decorated class things. mr lai (ft) is gg to bring me, chinhui, hidayah, farahdillah to concourse on wed. aft sch. sians. dunnoe wad to do... i tink he might feel kinda wierd ba. it's like 4 gurls and he's goanna b the onli guy. LOLs. my teachers have been change. ms picca is no longer my form teacher anymore.. and i quite miss her.. is like she has been teaching me for 3 years ald. ever since i'm in tis sch.. cant deny the fact tt i'm gg to miss her aft she left.. then it's like mr lai taking over.. mr lai is a great teacher.. the kind tt joke one ba. his phrase currently is "we dun force ppl one.." >.<" mrs heng isnt teaching me anymore. she's leaving too.. and not gg to b teaching anymore.. cos she wanted to b a devoted mum.. good fer her kid(s)! boo hoo. i'm right. mrs heng is avoiding us.. hais. mayb she tinks it's good fer us... wad can i say? mr sharil taking over.. he's nice too. but somehow i feel he similar to mr hafiz.. the kind tt surprise ppl.. he came into the class.. we joke. but we get some shock. he started asking question abt our sec 3 work. i somehow completely forgot abt all those.. boo. my pe teacher is no longer the one we can joke. nt mr owyong anymore. it's mdm soh/mrs vai. but it would mean no more of push ups, no more of running and yet running for pe. seeing e2 doing tt onli.. LOLs. joke la. (des goanna kill me) mrs vai seemed to b a nice teacher =D but i heard she's fierce.. sciences and maths teachers still remain the same.. but mdm lim placed me right in front of class in lab time.. mr chew had left us. for the ex-e5ians, it's like AGAIN. the second time. but for now, he might never b back anymore.. ms rafiddah is taking over us.. wells, her lessons r damn boring. but i'm nt sleeping in her class.. or any other teacher's class anymore. mr lai taught us smt tis week.. he doesnt force ppl.. and how to spot when sm1 is guilty... our in focus is on TUESDAY, WEDNESDAY, THURSDAY AND FRIDAY. which means tt i'm only free on monday. boo hoo. infocus ends at 4.3o somemore. it'll b late when i get home. hais. life smt sux man.. my cca is on fri. and i doesnt need to go home late. cos i decided to use my break time for my cca. so i'll still b gg home at 4.30 =D been a good kid.. so far had keep to most of my resolution =) gg out soon. blog like next week??? LOLS. anyway, i can expect a boring tuition day tmr. hais. wish me luck for the coming surprise test for ss. and tt i can finish all my homework.. which is like chi compre, e math assignment, a math assignment, chem tys, phys practical bk, physics worksheet, geo worksheet and PCCG. sians. sms/call me if there's anything. if dunnoe then leave a tag. i'll visit my blog when i'm free.. but nt blog =)

2006-01-02T18:17:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish i could jus slap myself -.- ohwells, i did smt tt was against my new year resolution i did try nt to sms him oh wells actually intended jus to msg a simple new year msg but then he replied me abt my phone so i answered every bits and i didnt tink anything else.. but then i msg the wrong person at night -.- oh oh. and tt's him oops! =X somehow the feelings seems to come back i'm in deep shit cos i'm nt to tink anything on tt. argh take it as it comes n goes i dunnoe wad more can i do ald had a bad quarrel wif my mum on the last day of 2005. it was realli a bad one my jie and me against my mum nt bad huh? the 2 elder ones but wad can i do? argh. nvm somehow it's alrite ald ba i tink.. we got talk le anyways, i LOVE my jie and she will love me the best among me n my sis =D she rawks! my mei is jealous of me! heh heh tt's a nice n fresh news though =D cant wait for sch but i dunnoe wad to do when i c u. and her too. trying to forgive her again? argh cant b bothered cos i know i shall b a nice lil gal =D studying to the best (= and getting help when i needed. tt's the best and i've got to pass my phys and geo and tt's the most impt and i got to do it =)) my phone down for repair boo hoo.

2005-12-30T13:46:00.000+08:00

wells. today is the 2nd last day of 2oo5 and so it's the last post of my 2oo5 my resolution for 2oo6~ [x] no mapling/blogging/blog v (except on weekends/holidays) [x] no tvs programmes except news (except holidays) [x] no usage of computer unless for project [x] no msn (except on weekends/holidays) [x] no more of "shopping" aft sch [x] no more of eating too long aft sch [x] no more of gg out even on weekends for shopping (unless for festivals) [x] good results for o [x] no sms-ing/sleepings in lessons [x] not 2 sleep b4 11pm each nite on weekdays [x] to concentrate in class [x] to do ALL my tuition homework (i dun usually do them) [x] to pass phys and better grades for geo esp -__-" [x] get help when i doesnt know how to do my sch stuffs [x] read the newspaper everyday -_-" [x] do all my sch homework instead of copying [x] b nice n help my sis in her studies -esp for math and sci [x] try nt to quarrel wif my sis (haha! the word is try) [x] NO THOUGHTS ON RELATIONSHIP :o) [x] no more snacking (esp when i'm hungry) - have proper meals instead =D [x] to go for joggin each morning -when it doesnt rains [x] nt to care too much on friendship prob -i used to b [x] nt to care too much on class com stuffs, ccas bye bye.. o1. my blog o2. msn o3. maple o4 .slacking o5. computer harlo.. o1. dear sch o2. in focus o3. textbooks o4. more homework o5. more tys and ya, dun bother abt tagging at my tagboard like "pls update" etc. cos i'm lazy and cant b bothered to b online frm nxt yr onwards. take cares folks! hang in there for more in focus etc (the "harlo") and good luck for our 'o's evelyn` 30th dec 2005

2005-12-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

the verdict is out i tink the news is 98% sure ald our ft is nt ms picca and is ... good or bad? i dunnoe. i tink our class will bully him. jus like how it was in class ald hais. jus wish all the best in the coming yr. there will sure b a change cos i know he's a good teacher! good luck 2 me!

2005-12-29T13:33:00.000+08:00

soul searching. brain thinking. bad experiences. finally, i decided. other than studies, i jus goanna do anything 2 b happy. if i'm faced wif anything, i'll jus do ANYTHING; so long i'm happy. and i'm glad enough knowing there is sm1 who'll b there. IF i'm re-elected again, i'll c the situation. if i've 2 do smt i dun like or 2 b forced wif doing anything i dont like then i'll jus leave the post. i dun care anymore. ever since the beginning of the year i've been trying to let go of the post but ms picca dun let. now i seriously doesnt wan 2 care anymore. O is the pirority now. i dunnoe how many times have i cried over those matters. how many times have i tink whether i've done wrong. how many nights have i lost my sleep because of her. since she's still like this, wad more can i do? i dun even wish to ~~care~~ anymore yes, i'm blessed wif frens and everything but who can ever read my thoughts and understand the pain i'm going thru who can i talk freely to and tell them wad i'm feeling none none none either i know they will b stuck btw us or i dun wan them 2 b distracted i've ~~absolutely~~ no one 2 talk

i still brainwashing myself. tellin me tt we shall NOT b tgt but u'll b sm1 i cared for i shall tink of u like.. a listener;a friend; a sibling and there's nth else i shld tink of at least for now

2005-12-27T17:08:00.000+08:00

oh wells. first 2 say. THE PREVIOUS POST PIC WAS DONE BY YUTIAN heh heh. and the 2 words are "you dun" -_-" went 2 tuition. oh wells. jus the same wif darlings. amath was shit absoluately SHIT stupid differentation it super hard 2 understand wad 2 do in class man and it's like the 1st 5 chapt on tt? oh man next lesson shall never b the same cos tian goanna left me alone ='( boo hoo c her in sch then and our "fantastic" cca days nvm shall drag sm1 else go wif me so i wont b bored mayb i'm taking wed for my cca good or bad? jus pure slacking there bullying the juniors and telling tt freak "oh, it's our O lvl nxt yr. impt arh. cant help out in cca" doreamon will understand tt.. (haha!) saw simin today haha we ate at mac it was so fun. wee wee talk talk. then shi lao shi called her rushed back 2 sch. hahas. funny though. 6 more days 2 sch reopen WHEES~ cant wait cant wait and i'm abondoning my blog in +- 6 days time

2005-12-25T15:10:00.000+08:00

i cop the pic from ting. heh. sujun was whitened. one of the "whitened" pic i'm super white.. MERRY X'MAS 2 everyone who dropped by! and for those who msg me chirstmas greetings like my best pal wangxu (never msg me when he's back -_-") , zhi kuang (piang, i'm shocked..) , my darlings, my besties! and the rest! thanks alot =D appreciate tt.

no matter wad it is

'o' lvl is still MY priority

2005-12-24T10:24:00.000+08:00

oh wells. let me recap wad happened ytd.. the 3 of us went 2 des's hse and have fun not forgetting 2 celebrate eve eve christmas and we DID mess up des rm -_-" wells. SORRY!! tt we mess up and tt i've 2 go back eary we talked alot like frm 11am all the way to 5pm and tt's like 6h.. went 2 fued cafe as well.. then after tt the 2 girls are reading comics.. they were soo concentrated.. hahas! we have the tibits, the pepis twist and of cos the x'mas CAKE la la la la la~! it was pure fun man.. i realli enjoyed myself.. heh after tt got 2 go home early nt jus b'cos my dad's at home but my mom called me back as well -_-" b'cos i got 2 go an dchange phone!!! haha i'm sooo happy cos my parents paid like 200? (pls la, it's the voucher) oh wells, tis lame.. but i still got 2 forked out $$ and i'm bloody poor now the phone is like $298 so i got to pay jus $98 but it's so ex. nvm i've got free incoming whole day free 100 min outgoing 1000sms free so pick ur type! hahas either sms me, or call me lor and btw, i dun intend 2 pay the months fee! =P and i'm nt using the old number anymore so dun call or msg there. thanks. jus ask me for my number lor. cos i dun wan to type out here. =D some image frm ytd.. THE CAKES.. our cake! the stars! (mine's nt here..) wif candles! cutting of cakes-cut jingting + sujun the "cut" cake concentration of ting when cutting cake.. . TWIST! (shld b des's fingers) tempted? a slice of cake~ yum yum! the leftovers.. US! i'm tirsty la! the middle finger~ me and des! sujun took tis when me and des were posting.. jingting. sujun. yutian. my best pals, my besties =D the 2 playful ones.. as usual, monkey-ing ard she didnt realise wei-qi was wif the cam.. do we looked like sisters?? fruttie table! des's gz qi. tian. ting. jun. (mine's the old one) they were monkey-ing. i'm smiling =D tata~ tt's all i love u guys.. making a fun day ytd may we b bless wif a eternal frenship

2005-12-23T08:28:00.000+08:00

wad m i doing now argh. cant b bothered wadever. i'm having dark eye rings liao lost my sleep last night oh wells. i'm lazy 2 type out i dunnoe wad 2 answer in my tag and i arent having having BIG dreams cos i know it's impossible..... but BIG exams nvm. 11 more days

2005-12-22T14:08:00.000+08:00

is school good or is holidays better? now, i'm stuck at tis question when i'm studying, i wished for a holis but when i'm having a holi, i hope for sch 2 start am i gettin mad? mayb i'm. lols well wells. playing for maple like god knows yseems so childish.. (hahas!) cos tt's the onli way 2 pass time haven been doing any studying nor revising slacking at home lazy pig --> tt's me! getting fatter and fatter each day (my sis's phrase) nvm. i goanna chiong for my last yr in sch and i'm aiming for a poly =D wells. i'm a lazy bum. tt's y when sch starts.. there wont b anymore gaming and surfing the net.. till weekends/holis and computer is strictly for project work onli and of cos when the o ends tt shall b the day i chiong for games and lesuire things once again bloggin shall b weekends stuffs or when i'm in sch labs. hahas. so dun realli need 2 bother askin me 2 update cos i wont b online alot. tis week.. i'm like so busy gg out / having tings 2 do ~~20th- meeting des at supermarket 21st- gg lib wif chin hui~~ 22nd- gg plaza sing wif my sis 23rd- gg des's hse celebrate x'mas 24th- gg jonathan's for x'mas 25th- gg aunty's hse for x'mas 27th- gg tuition -_-" 28th- gg sch buy books + bubble tea =D 3rd (jan)- sch BORING` BORING` BORING` 12 more days.. marked the begining of new start for everything i need 2 wake up in my dreams! 12 more days left no more dreaming / sleeping in class no more having blank stares no more seeing stars in class no more glancing for ur presence no more of nt handing hw no more of having frenship probs

constantly telling myself reminding me always tinking of the msg tt u r always there fer me though it doesnt ever happens but tt's the way for me to hang on to continute when i'm wif probs wad more can i still do? i understand ur stand fully understood. but can i ~~let go of u~~ it's not easy i know it's impossible but i'm still dreaming of the impossible y y y ? ? ? y's all tis happening?

tis shld never happen.. but y it's now? i'm havin BIG exams i cant afford to do tis

FORGET FORGET

2005-12-21T12:32:00.000+08:00

I FORGOT I CANT DRINK MILK TEA and i drank it again argh! i hope i wont get dirrohea gg out today =D intend 2 b a good lil girl heading lib 2 read i still haven figure out how 2 write a "good" essay ve got 2 ask mr d heh heh but i doubted a good ans out

i rather e old u e one wif smiles all day

2005-12-20T13:20:00.000+08:00

right. so i've been tagged. and forced 2 do tis =( rules of the game: post 5 weird and random facts about yourself,then at the end list the names of 5 people who are next in line to do this don't forget to leave a comment that says " you are tagged" in their blog and tell them to read yours (= #1- i love sports esp netball n floorball, i cant lead my life w/o pink n my phone, my com and my frens #2- i can eat like a pig and sleep like a pig --> every1 in my fam knows.. #3- i dun like 2 b late n i HATE guys who r late too.. #4- i cant stand gays. n their gays action.. (no offence!) les still okkk la. but not too les! #5- i'm dumb when it comes 2 study.. esp for geo and phys NOW 5 people to do this: CHINHUI. ESTHER CHUA. BEIJIA. MR D. WEIPING. (wif blogs)

2005-12-20T09:11:00.000+08:00

HaPpY 23rd bUrFdAy 2 mr D! i'm 8years younger kies? (still a kid 2 u) haha... sm1's old old old.. hehe. so.. dun always bully me =X LOLS. he's been a veri nice teacher but he can b very fierce.. *recall the incident in class* and i'm so nice cos i waited till 12 jus 2 send the msg to the friendly and "helpful" teacher i've had =D wells, lame.. -_-" i know

2005-12-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

List the names of 20 people in random order: 1. dd 2. des 3. sujun 4. jingting 5. estherchua 6. chinhui 7. wangxu 8. weiping jie 9. beijia darling 10. angelina darling 11. cindy 12. mr d 13. wanling 14. melissa 15. terence (tan) 16. big jon 17. mdm yap 18. mdm sim 19. justin 20. ms tan Now answer the questions: 1. Is #1 a boy or girl? guy 2. Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple? both r female 3. How about #18 and #4? both r female 4. What grade is #17 in? lol. adult ald.. 5. When was the last time you talked to #12? hahas. ages.. 6. What is #6's favorite band? hong junyang? 7. Does #1 have any siblings? errr.. i dunnoe 8. Would you ever date #3? SHE'S MY MEI 9. Would you ever date #7? hahas. nope. he's my best pal =D 10. Is #16 single? ya 11. What's #15's last name? (surname) tan (chi name) wei 12. What's #10's middle name? tan xx (i dunnoe) 13. What's #5's favorite thing to do? talk crap? 14. Is #13 hot? she's sweet.. 15. Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? they dunnoe each other 16. What school does #20 go to? i dunnoe 17. Tell me a random fact about #11? she's tall 18. And #1: ahhas. cant say =D 19. And #4: my lao gong =) 20. Have you ever had a crush on #15? oh pls la 21. Where does #9 live? sembawang 22. What's #3 favorite color? blue i tink 23. Would you makeout with #14? dun tink so 24. Are #5 & #6 best friends? er.. ok la 25. Does #7 like #2? they dunnoe each other 26. Does #8 like #19? they dunnoe each other 27. How did you meet #2? sch 28. How did you meet #18? sch 29. Does #10 have any pets? nt sure 30. Is #12 older than you? haha.. ya 31. Is #17 the sexiest person alive, or what? she's a nice mum.. i'm sure..

2005-12-19T14:46:00.000+08:00

wells. i cant wait 4 the meeting up wif my besties tearing dwn des's hse.. drinkin bb tea eating western food talking non stop =)) it's goanna b fun 4 more days =D 9 h 14 min--> mr d's BURFDAY!

2005-12-17T20:06:00.000+08:00

lalalas-

if onli u know i doesnt mind abt OUR status if u know tt i doesnt wan e agreement if u were 2 b sad i jus wan u 2 b e happy person i once knew ~~if it's possible~~

2005-12-15T15:15:00.000+08:00

went 2 e sch dentist today it was so scary and i hate dentist so much but today's one seemed 2 b in a rush every1 like 5min finish le and many ppl didnt even come it was supposed 2 b frm 3e1-3e3 and 1t1 but seems like nt alot are coming hell - we r going 2 mess up des's hse for christmas!! (eve de eve) tt shall b fun! and i'm looking 4ward 2 it =)) it has been like a year we have parted.. but 2 me, it seems like ages ald u may tink is funni, but it wasnt i realli miss u guys

i questioned myself; wad went wrong many diff thoughts came into me i wasnt sure which was right but i'm veri sure of 1 thing the promise and status DOESNT affect me and i hope tt's the same fer u =) even a thousand mile i dreamt of ya-

5 days to mr quek's bdae 8 days to des's hse 9 days to jonathan (cussin)'s hse 10 days to christmas (at aunty's hse) 17 more days to sch re-open

2005-12-13T15:15:00.000+08:00

went to buy books. though i'm nt sure if it's open more likely 2 buy bubble tea and 2 eat out it seemed ages when i went out wif my sis so i decided 2 b a nice jie jie and bring her out i saw fiona and sujun at kfc and the 2 retards didnt c me so i went up n call them hahas. they r so surprise 2 c me then at tm there saw lp christabel she seemed surpsrise too wonder y maybe b'cos of my hair and the way i dress ba =)) anyways, didnt go buy books in tpss not open =X and my sis didnt wan 2 go her sch cos she see sarah and she dun like her hahas we r lazy bunch of ppl =D and to my darling, yutian i know! and i dun intend to go on it now mayb aft my 'o' then c 1st i jus wan 2 concentrate on my 'o' nth else more u no nid 2 worry abt me =) i can tink nw.. i'm a big GIRL le.. =D and i tink 'o' is more imp than anything the rest can all wait

i need u VS i need u-grove courage I know there's something in your eyes, I know there's something in your smile, makes me feel like losing all my thoughts tonight, Baby. Everyday I read between the lines, every night I'm searching for your signs. You belong to heaven's gate, angel of hope... I need you, you're always on my mind. That's all you left behind, my love will last eternally I need you, like no one else before You're all that I adore, my love will lasteternally I need you So many things I failed to do One thousand miles I'd run for you, you're still the only one I ever need, Baby! Everyday I read between the lines, every night I'm waiting for your signs. You belong to heaven's gate, angel of hope... I need you, you're always on my mind. That's all you left behind, my love will last eternally I need you, like no one else before You're all that I adore, my love will last eternally I need you ...between the lines, every night I'm searching for your signs. You belong to heaven's gate, angel of hope... I need you, you're always on my mind. That's all you left behind, my love will last eternally... I need you, like no one else before You're all that I adore, my love will last eternally, I need you... Oh I need you, like no one else before... So many things I failed to do... One thousand miles I'd run for you, you're still the only one I ever need, Baby! Everyday I read between the lines, every night I'm waiting for your signs. You belong to heaven's gate, angel of hope... I need you, you're always on my mind. That's all you left behind, my love will last eternally. I need you, like no one else before You're all that I adore, my love will last eternally, I need you... I need you, you're always on my mind. That's all you left behind, my love will last eternally. I need you, like no one else before You're all that I adore, my love will last eternally. I need you, you're always on my mind. That's all you left behind, my love will last eternally. I need you, like no one else before You're all that I adore, my love will last eternally, I need you...

2005-12-12T15:20:00.000+08:00

i've been a nice lil girl =) doing the sch stuffs.. esp the review for articles actually, i find it fun 2 do all tt.. i'm mad. i'm mad. =) i studied chem and i'm intending 2 do tt for phys n geo or else i wont ve time when sch reopens - i mus b real mad i slp at 12am last night and i woke up at 2am and i couldnt slp then suddenly.. the thought of justin came into my mind.. wonder y.. i looked out of the window.. it's a 24h shop so i msg him.. ask him whether he's there and i'm right he's there.. we msg.. till 4.. until i manage 2 slp and i woke up.. at 8am and i cant slp i wonder wad's wrong wif me but i tink i found out smt who perhaps i shldnt cos i change all my views on him he's a smk-er but i'm nt sure.. and i doesnt like tt - then i chiong thru the 2nd news article still have 4 more 2 go complete them then i wont have anymore hw and it shall e time where i slack abit.. i might b doing them 2nite not all but mayb 2 i shld b able 2 do it

seconds, minutes and hours days, weeks and months i'm still waiting waiting and waiting standing all alone shld i still hang on it tight?

8 more days 2 mr d's bday 13 more days 2 christmas 21 more days 2 sch reopen

2005-12-11T21:13:00.000+08:00

i forgot 2 add on i've straighten out all my thots and there's onli 2 opt either u learn 2 love me or u jus hate me since it's jus 1yr left, then u shall go ur OWN way and i shall go MINE's too btw, i dun give a damn 2 ppl who- 1. act 2. tink they r damn smart (when they arent) 3. peng weis 4. n doesnt give a damn 2 frenship 5. backstab 6. blame others (when they r in wrong) and sad 2 say u qualify all those.. so be it n there's nth 2 talk abt since MY decision ve ald came out *grins 2 ch* oh.. n I'M ALWAYS THE WRONG ONE AND U R THE SUPERIOR ONE GLAD? HAPPY? CONTENTED?

wad have i been doing? 2 fall so deep in <3 nw, i dunnoe wad 2 do y we jus cant be tgt y is tis world jus like tis we r diff in everything yet we met tgt have the destiny 2 meet but never b tgt perhaps we can. someday. oneday.

2005-12-11T20:28:00.000+08:00

lalalas. ve got a new darling in tuition =D tt's beijia and my dear dear angelina =) not forgetting my dear dear one- des (: awww.. we r so swit 2 each other =P and WE r always e superior sexes! HEN-ney lee cant do us anything but today super unluckly we ve equal amt of of both sexes SHIT and i've got e teasing today boohoo =( nvm it shant b me nxt lesson *looking on bright side* i'm getting more n more stone in emath and e chapts sux like hell boring things do hope mdm ho wont b teaching them 1st =)) but e chem was "chim" but once grab e theroy, everything's fine but it does get boring too drawing those formula went to plaza singapura wells shopping and talking lors we went 2 buy a coaster and a stress ball tt des wanted aft tt eat the sushi it's nice =) but by the time we get to tamp it's ald 4.3o and e class ends at 2.30 - my sis reformat the bloody com lots of scoldings and naggings well, wad can i say i dun give a damn =) i've lost lots of things.. those i put as bookmarks in the firefox shit! so wad if she can do e com as if i dun wan 2 reformat myself is jus i cannot do it rite ask u 2 teach den u dun wan so dun keep saying it's MY fault - i'm superly diff frm u wad i wanted n u wanted dun u even insult me or i wont go over there again perhaps u'll nva come by my blog but.. dun ever take me as come as u wanted and leave when u discard i'm nt tt kind bla-

i wan 2 b ur one n onli =) y is it jus so hard? n y we seems so far apart? b'cos of tt promise? shucks i rather nt have tt if tis going 2 happen

2005-12-10T13:49:00.000+08:00

ytd. went to tuition at 1pm. but decided 2 meet des super early as both of us have got absolutely nth 2 do. so kind of meeting at 1oam. the class was still the same.. science wif tt duman high guy.. who seems 2 b answering all the questions. math was still e fun part. all 6 girls and jus tt mr lee =) tt's mr lee totally freaked me out when he said tt he once burried a toad alive when he's like ard pri 6. oh man. i totally glared at him lor. i've never seen any1 who can b like tis animal killer =( as usual, we were talking and talking, luffing wid jokes.. then tis person came.. asking for "henry lee" and the whole class laugh =) he spoilt his own image when tt lady was jus outside e class. after tuition, went 2 bedok. meet mummy 2 eat. damn sian. waiting there for 2h.. and then i saw geraldine.. i guess she didnt c me.. but i dun realli hope 2 c her.. took 28 aft eating.. then it was ard 8 plus liao.. then big jon msg me.. then we talk.. abt my bloody hair. then talk talk lor.. reached home at abt 9 ba.. then aft tt watch tv.. hehes. till 12 then slp le =)

i wan 2 be ur one. n onli =))

2005-12-08T13:33:00.000+08:00

i read books super fast man. jus went to lib ytd 2 borrow 4 books n i've read finished 2 books and the 3rd abt 3/4 ald. i'm gg lib soon =) e blog tt was btw us was gg on fine.. wif updating and stuffs nowadays. guess we will be abandoning them real soon (and tis blog too). we have a nice nice blog =) silence doesnt mean i'm nt intending 2 solve e prob. neither does it mean i'm admiting all the fault (when i doesnt know anything at all till e last). the time 4 me 2 4get abt the incident haven faded. but the process of 4giv have ald ended months n months ago. yet all u claim was i still stay in e past. [hello, i've 4given everything u've done wrong] i jus recall of e past; the unhappy moments. does doing all tis an error as well? but u urself said abt e time when u've gt the sec 2 camp. stop saying me when u did the same error s well. u claimed tt i was e onli 1 wif feelings liddat. and u said tt u've feelings 2. i dun believe. if u ve got, u wont blame others when we r quarreling (u shld know better) DES said i've got to thank her b'cos she's going hm wif me for the last 3 session of tuition. i cant wait for sch 2 start. despite i cant game and slack anymore but it shall b a first yr i wont be daydreaming in class i wont go ard 2 care 4 frenship probs - i shall be studying hard and get a good 'o' lvl cert - we shldnt be wasting tym in relationships ~~perhpas we shld jus remain like tis mayb we haven been loving each other but taking as a close buddy (and i doubt tis)~~ ever and ever at least till 'o' ve finish isnt tt the best way off? yes yes tis shld b e right way out and e onli way too

2005-12-07T10:00:00.000+08:00

being at home eveyday isit a v good solution. i nid 2 go out as well. i'm crop up at home all day! well, wad's the diff frm going sch sia.. i rather go sch.. it's jus waking up early and having test/exams. the + point is can meet frens!!! but the - point is having 2 c ppl who accuse n put words into my mouth. yes. but nowadays i dread going out. i wonder y y y. realli dun like to go shopping but still love going library.. maybe b'cos i love reading sooo much. but not of doing reviews. i jus intend 2 read. i haven brought any of next yr book.. but total up shld be less than $10. but have got 2 add up for my emath text.. so it's abt $20. it's damn cheap lor. so my mum doesnt mind giving me the money 2 buy bks tis yr.. unlike previous years, she will nag nag nag. well, tis' a good sign. oh btw, i've change my spects. hahas. i dare say some sotong cant recoginise me anymore.. haha.. jus like heng yee when i saw him ytd =PpP dun be surprise when u c tis wierd person in 4e3 nxt yr.. and ch finally blog ald. u ppl shld go n c.

2005-12-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

yes yes yes everything shall be MINE fault i didnt do anything n now i've 2 apologise? WTF. u assume things and say i push the blame. u try to tink wad i'm tinking and wif tt, u say tt's wad i'm tinking when it's not when did i go ard telling my unhappiness did u even c me telling others? did i write anything like xxx is xxx? did i even do all those? the answer is no. and u know e ans clearly. but y on earth r u saying all those? is hurting ppl ur personallity? does ur attitude n personallity having prob? others can tell u things but does it mean they r always true they assume things smt but do u have 2 agree and put words into me and worst still, believe? u doesnt ve the right 2 - interfere wif me - interfere wif my life - interfere wif wadever i'm doing since u arent happy then go away la no one ask u 2 look at my blog to comment or even say anything yes yes yes. ALL IS MY FAULT does ~~tis~~ please u? and btw, the word "concerning" means 1. To have to do with or relate to 2. To be of interest or importance to 3. To engage the attention of; involve 4. To cause anxiety or uneasiness in: -dictionary.com- use the word onli if u know the meaning clear and stop putting words into my mouth and u arent me, so stop assuming wad i'm doing next.

2005-12-05T15:05:00.000+08:00

sighs. tis holis wont be a peaceful one for me anymore. *pulling my hairs* wad do u wan me 2 say? as in i'm truely sorry? when i'm not sorry abt it? i'm not like tis and i shant be like tis tis's nt me i'm the one who choose my life and no one shall ve a say i'm responsible for everything i'm doing so y do i have ppl who interfere? is it so hard to get ppl to support me for the things i'm doing yes. i've dd who jus wanted me 2 b happy but wad abt the rest? i dun wan ppl who jus talk i wan actions 2 prove all tt not jus the talking so wad if i'm to live in the past wad's so wrong abt tis doesnt ppl nid to have memories? doesnt ppl learn frm the past? and lead a happy present or future wad is my prob to do this or even to rot in the past ~~FUCK.~~ i hate myself 2 b crying right nw i wanted 2 b happy i wanted 2 b strong i can do it and i will do it. school holis shall be the days when i've break now i cant have it wells. sch reopen shall b a new start cos i wont have time to waste i jus wan to strive my best

2005-12-05T10:50:00.000+08:00

hell. i'm having a bad dirrorea. i wonder wad did i eat ytd.. jus at tamp's hans and doubby's burger king and a egg tart in the morning too.. the dirrorea was real bad.... i didnt have my dinner cos i jus couldnt eat (ha.. seems funni for me-tt's wad my sis would say) till now, i'm not hungry at all.. wierd wierd wierd. i'm realli not feeling well. tis holis had been bad. i'm either having a flu or a cough and there's absolutely nth 2 do. last night was the day we patch.. wells, frens 4 ever i hope. at least, once again. no quarrels and having the 'trust' there once again. i ask dd whether i shld continute on wif wad i'm right nw. oh yes, he said so long i'm happy it's ok le. wells, i admit i'm realli elated and glad at this answer. yes i'm. and i'm smiling at the sms on the bus ride tt day *oops* yes yes. i shall do wad he says.. STAY HAPPY!

2005-12-01T11:06:00.000+08:00

eating, gaming, sleeping and heading for tuition are the things i've been doing for the past 2 weeks. i'm getting more and more lazy.. and getting fat nw =( i might be in 2oo6's tarf club soon. i didnt went out at all wif my frens or so. i've been a good little ger ger at home. but tis goanna kill me soon. it's super boring. and i haven got any vcd/dvd to watch anymore. i wan to get smt to do instead of eating, surfing the net, gaming, sleeping and going tuition. smt tt fun and interesting soon. or i'll be bored to death.

2005-11-29T14:32:00.000+08:00

i've change my blogskins again. cos there's some error and some of the links have problems seeing in firefox. everything's in order nw. maple can also play le~~ hip hip hurray!

2005-11-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

it's a freakish boring day! maple's dwn for two days.. it's freakish irriating lor. it started off at 12am last night.. till tmr. and i cant find anything for me to do except doing blogs and to surf ard. but it can be real bored to do tt for a day. so i went abt eating, slacking and watching tv. of cos, msn too. =) tis year's holis is super boring.. i dun c wad's the reason man. in the past years, i seemed to have smt to get my hands on.. well well. i suppose i shld be buying some strings to make a nice frenship bands.. hahas. haven decided to do to who.. perhpas to cindy? hais. we seemed to be so far apart nwadays. wonder y. she seems to be avoiding me. but est said b'cos she tinks i'm angry wif her. grr.. well wells. to cindy, if i did anything tt makes u tink i'm angry, well, i'm not =) i did alot of tinking tis holis though. i wonder wad's wrong wif me. i shld write it dwn but instead i wont say the names ^.^ here goes. girl 1 hurt me alot. and i do hate her alot too. i cant understand y she did tt to me but wells. i've tried to forget abt it. now, we r talking la. but i cant bring myself to forget tt incident. and i cant get myself closer to her anymore. girl 2. she hurt me by doing smt which i myself dislike quite alot... now, we are talking (jus like gal 1) but i can realli talk freely.. and i seemed to forget all those things she did to me when we were tgt. y is all this happening? seems wierd for me. i'm nt realli biased lor.. but this looked lke. even if i wanted to forgive and forget, i dun tink i can do it. cos of those frens ard me. i know i shant be bothered wif how my frens r tinking.. but i suppose nw they weigh much more than girl 1 and 2. i supposed, i jus can be a normal frens wif them. i realli dun wan to lose those ard me ald cos i've ald lost the trust of girl 1 and 2 b4. and who knows wil they do the same to me as they did in the past. (jus like the saying "once bitten, twice shy") this entry arnt against who so ever. if u tink u r sorry and wan to apologise, u have my phone number. msg me. but if u dun tink u r wrong or i'm going against u, then forget it. u shall nva be the same person i've ever known. take it tt u have lost me when the quarrel has started.

2005-11-28T12:21:00.000+08:00

lalalas. i'm fine nw =) awwww. sorry for making u ppl trouble =P

2005-11-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

Whenever there's an argument, parents will be finding the truth before they scold or even tell u off. But mine's didn't. I've had enugh ever since I'm born in this world. They have NEVER do tt. Not even once. Does it means tt being the elder one mus be the person tt parents have to aim for all the times? But I've never seen my elder sis getting scolded b'cos of me or when I've done anything wrong. I dun mean I'm a veri good kid but at least I dun go abt sabo-ing my siblings when I'm being scolded or when I did smt wrong. Now, the problem doesn't lies on me but on my parents and my younger sis. She was there throwing my things and flicking them all abt. I told her off b'cos they were MY things. And she shldnt do them and she's super noisy. Well, b'cos of telling her off (which to my parents when I did it was wrong but not to my younger sis) I was scolded by them. Then my dad jus told me to shut up before he'll come and slap me. To me, I'm thinking come la. It was not the first time he had ever beat me up. Not onli my mum didn't side me, she blame me each time when Kristen was quarreling wif me over the computer and now she scold me for not letting her since she's the "youngest" in the family. Is like wad the hell lor..? is all tis fair? In the past, when my elder sister was at home, none of this will even happen. She will jus tell them how she feel. Can my parents even calm dwn and even try to talk to me abt all this nicely in a nicer way instead of blaming either party? i dun care whether they scold me or wad so ever cos I know, they wan the best out of me but now, they are taking the thought of "elder must let the younger" = "elder mus be scolded even though the younger is wrong.. b'cos they are young ma.." I can no longer see the "old" parent I've had. I really feel bad abt this matter. But I shldnt shout back at them rite..? so I decided to pen dwn my thoughts. i'm crying.. like i've never did when i'm blogging.. =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( =( i dun nid anyone of your's comment. I dun nid seriously. Perhaps jus my besties.. haiya. dun bother la my dears. but I wan YOU to be there. I wan u to talk to me. I wan u to listen to me. I jus nid ur presence. I wan to sit at the same position wif u the other day.. the day when both of us jus keep silent. When I could hear your breathing dwn my neck.

2005-11-25T09:03:00.000+08:00

hahas. the world can be pretty small and big too. i didnt know jerry's cousin (daniel tan) was actually my ex pri sch classmate!!! it mus be super wierd when both of them find out the 'evelyn' they are refering to is the same person and it's me ME ME!!! cool. and tis's nt the first case. jus like my partner, alvin yap has got a sister angie was in the same class as my elder sis! and my sis also know sinyee's brother b'cos they r in the same sch! the world's damn small. but big enugh not to find a person (if u dun know where to start) anyway, i hope daniel (tan) wont have anything bad to say abt me =X i mus have been a bad pri sch kid i went to looked at all my pri sch days photo.. omg. i realised a shocking truth. i dun even know i was in the same class as weidong b4.. hahas.

2005-11-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

went to bugis wif my mum and sis. wells, it's tiring but fun and fast journey. we went there cos my mum arent working.. (actually is bcos meetin her sec sch frens but was cancelled) and didnt tell my dad till we came back =X bought alot of things back.. kris got herself 2 pure milk tees [i didnt wan to cos it's so ex] whereas i got over at OG to buy a shorts and a shirt.. actually still got another jeans skirt de.. but so ex. it's 3o bucks lorr. jus for tt. so decided to go over bum or tis fashion soon. jus to get them soon.. and for the "new" year ahead. hahas. then we went over to walk walk and look look.. then we went for a new print. *grins* it's wif my mum =D so happy today~ i goanna learn to be hard hearted smt i shant be always nice and i nid to learn how to reject ppl or else there'll be biiig trouble i love to do all those chem tys ^ is tt the me i used to be?? i dun recall i ever say tt in this yr.. when's sch goanna start? i miss those ppl there even those irrating freaks those crappers mates and the nice teachers i'm having and of cos the special one not forgetting to say my besties and close frens and my jie meis and my xiong dis man, i'm bored bored bored i shall update my profile SOON there are complains by wengyan =X -jkjk- i'll do it anyways bye! it's late le.. goanna slp =D ^ tt's the lazy me

2005-11-22T14:11:00.000+08:00

poor me. woke up feeling damn cold in the morning.. stupid weather. brr. on the com.. intend to game. frankly, i did have the intention to do the typings for mdm ho.. wells, jus the mood gone jus like tt. so go gaming. XD went to my grandma's hse ytd. well wells, it was a nice visit but it was boring when we were "shopping". (rather of browsing things instead) didnt buy much things.. except in ntuc stuffs like chocolates and cheeese! (my fave) didnt buy chips onli.. craps. bored nw. and kris wan the com. blog some other day perphas. and if u have notice, i've change a new skin =) do comment.

2005-11-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

i'm so bloody sick. imagine me to sleep standing in the mrt and even on the bus. nearly miss my stop for both when i'm heading back home for tuition. is like how can it happen to me??? i was sneezing thruout the whole tuition.. and seems like everyone aft tt also have the flu symdrom. everything was practically no taste man.. when sch's going to start. i'm so bored at home nw. awww.. i cant even go out. it's jus super sian life. i jus goanna study study and study!

2005-11-18T18:04:00.000+08:00

actually she's a nice teacher.. but does anyone knows? i admit, i smt may be mean towards her, but in terms of academic i still tried my best in tt. at least i can face her boldly and said "i've done my best in tt" but smt freaks doesnt. they dun even care for their future and treat her like.. *sighs* she may be mean and fierce towards us, but i suppose it's all for our own good. for those freaks who doesnt care, they didnt even have the right to be 3e3. yes, smt she may be unreasonable but she's definately a nice person to be wif. stand in her shoes and u'll understand. well well. ch and i are such nice souls. we intended to make mdm ho suffer.. hahas* by asking her to finish tt bowl of da mai.. and she forced us to eat finish. i was super unluckly. (well, to me it was) i had to sit in the front =( i've lost the scissors, paper, stone wif ch and i had to sit in the front. and ch is super bad!!!! she forgot tt her mum's arent working tt day and i'm all alone wif mdm ho.. and she even call me up... i shldn have known tt.. luckily i arent kidnapped =PpP i reached safely home =) click here for my new blog --> mine --> des --> sujun --> jingting

2005-11-15T14:29:00.000+08:00

shld i ever be forgiving abt the past? shld i be forgiving for everything which i've never done..? and even to patch back and retrive the past times? and try to be like wad we USED to be? jus like the past? can i be tt forgiving to forgive and forget wad the 2 of them had done towards me? i admit. last tym, i forgive her NOT b'cos i wanted to. but for some other (yet personal) thing. now, i've the right to choose it myself. to care abt their past or to lead my own style for everything. IF i'm to care abt ppl's own thoughts and feelings, no doubt, i can be the nicest person u ever noe but i'll end up not forgiving myself for the things i wanted to do but didnt do. perphas, the error i've made in my whole life is to be so nice ba. but IF i'm to do the things which i'd like, i'll be hurting those ppl ard me who have been supporting me all this while. i'm always reluctant to make a desicion myself. and now.. i've to choose them myself. what shld i do?

2005-11-13T18:03:00.000+08:00

i went to henry lee's tuition. it was damn right bored in chemistry. we jus did some boring stuffs and went for our break. show mr lee my chem papers. hope u wont get a shock out of his life and dropped all his hair by then. =X (p/s: des, dun tell him =P) i'm pretty surprised. (i supposed i shld be) i dun understand how can 2 ppl of diff classes taking diff subj can craps as much as how me and des did. well, we like can talk alot of things. hanging out at each other's hse like nobody's business talk tok till her mum's at home =X (and we r super noisy) perphas not changing sch is a good pt. or rather moving hse. i hate to go back sch next week. -for phys extra lessons and re-test- and i still nid to help mdm ho type the next lesson things. i dun understand wad my mum is thinking. she seems to be pinning down on me now and then even though i didnt do anything. she's super wierd. she comes right after me now and then. is it b'cos my jie arent at home?? WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WIF ME? i was so pissed off wif her. SUPER IN LOVE WIF MY CURRENT LIFE glad for everythin i've done i've ald tried my best fully contented

2005-11-10T19:17:00.000+08:00

daddy didnt go to work cos he was sick. then, he was sleeping in the living room. so i cant play maple. grr.. super sian lor. so in the end i didnt play the com. i intended to do my amath sums but in the end, i fell deep into sleep. i sleep for hours once again. i'm really getting fat. *sighs* i feeling tt i'm starting to love combined humanities. i'm realli attentive in class now c(: i realised every lesson mrs heng is teachin us, she would tell us abt life, and some life quotes. she would also mentioned abt HER own life when she was a student. well, sounds like mr bernard chew too. i realli miss him, all his jokes, HIS own experience on life. i've got to go back sch for a retest. for phys. i fail them very badly in eoy. i haven study them at all. i've got to do tt the whole weekends. *sighs* mdm lim says it's harder than eoy. i've jus got to try my best. i'm watching the new dvds. da chang jing- a korea drama but in chinese.

2005-11-09T19:02:00.000+08:00

ok. this post is specially delicated to my dear, des. she can onli be the one for today's post. SHE was the one who wanted tis entry. being a kind soul, i've to do it. *cries* she wanted me to tell others SHE helped LIM WEI-QI to carry her GEOGRAPHY BLACK RING FILE and her AMATH BIG BOOK. well, i've got to say she's nice (she force me de =P) and she helped me TWICE. but seems like i helped her to take HER books ytd like 4th time???!!!! geeX. btw, miss TEO YUTIAN finally make it! she had finished abt 3/4 of a SMALL (mind u, it's onli a small) cup of pepis in kfc (which i suppose this was the 1st time). she's goanna kill me when she sees this. oops! =X and of cos, she didnt finish eating her cheese fries though she did ate finish the burger.. mr hafiz was pulling their leg! des was so worried ytd. guess everything came out well (:

2005-11-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

today's sch was just like any normal day for me except that i feel so sleepy in class. i didnt sleep well last night. i supposed that is the reason for today's sleepy mood. it's not as if i'm hu shi luan xiang abt relationship lor. i'm thinking smt on chemistry. suddenly the eoy papers question struck me.. it's the one on epson salt. suddenly i get so worked up lor. i simply cant get into sleep.. and i need to deep breadth! jus now also like tis. y do i have to get so worked up. damn. ms rafidah finally came into my class. surprising, i was awake. but i wasnt sleepy. her lessons were not considered veri boring la. except tt i dun like her style of teaching. she skip here and there in the textbook. mdm sim was right. we will miss mr chew. and now i'm starting to do so. sighs. when will he be coming back?? perphas he'll come back onli after our 'o'. sians.

2005-11-06T18:22:00.000+08:00

last night. went to my aunty's hse. celebrating hari raya. sounds wierd for a chinese person like me rite? tt's a fact k? my aunties and uncle are either younger than me or at most 2 years older than me. boo hoo hoo... i feel so wierd. jus now. went to tuition. was damn bored. and the whole 4 hours was chim! esp was the math session. i completely dun understand abt the p&c. now, i need to listen to wad mdm ho had to say in class tmr. no more slacking pls and of cos, chit chatting in class. hahas. can i realli do that? i jus want to maintain a good amath test records by the end of next yr. i dun intend to fail any test if i can. then mdm ho would not be peaching me anymore. *winks* but i still nid to improve on my sciences. chemistry i jus have a C and as for physics, it's needless to say. i've flunked them the whole year! tt's a great sign for me to take note man. and.. i still haven taken the re-test. i dun have confident to pass physics anymore... *sighs* stupid doremon!!!! y do u have to mention tt? nvm. i shld be nice and forgive u since we have been frens so long the moment i get home after the long hours of tuition (which was abt 3.15pm), i took out my chemistry book which i've bought today. well, it's filled wif contents. but i was soo sleepy.. i read abt 1/2hour when i fell into a deep sleep... when i woke up, i was so shocked! i've slept for 3hours! damn. for the past few days, i've been waking up veri late.. almost like 1oam..

2005-11-03T16:50:00.000+08:00

Ultimate Survey (377 questions) time started: 3.58pm yourself full name: lim wei-qi nickname(s): penguin, qi birthday: 18-o7-199o where were you born: singapore, kk women and child zodiac sign: horse, cancer height: 1.6 weight: 50+ hair color: brown + black eye color: black but more of brown shoe size: 7 ring size: err.. i dunnoe skin type: FAIR! blood type: i dunnoe grade: C5 for overall GPA: wad's tt? siblings: 2-kris and elaine tattoos: dun ve now. last time play den have (: piercings: 1 pair hobbies: sports! favorite color: PINK! light purple, sky blue and some orange! food: lotz candy: hmm.. cant rmb.. everytym buy =P type of cheese: all is the same la pizza topping: cheesee salad dressing: dunnoe sandwich: smoke ham + cheese (frm pacific cafe) cereal: honey stars fruit: soursop, green apple,.. vegetable: kangkong berry: strawberries cake: ice cream cakes ONLI book: novels movie: er... lots! magazine: dun read them newspaper: straits times and new paper tv show: chinese drama website: my BLOG, friendster radio station: FM93.3 font: kristen itc, baby kruffy cartoon character: pooh bear artist (painter): mrs anne chan actor: dunnoe actress: dunnoe cd: avril lavign song: lots. check my frenster for more music group: lots music type: pop + rock day of the week: fri = early release month: july, dec season: spring + winter holiday: the trip to china shampoo: dentol conditioner: i dun use number: #o7 phrase: hahas. lots man.. store: 7-11 weather: light rain/bright morning/windy days restaurant: soup kitchen/swensens channel: U teacher: mdm sim, mdm yap, ms tan,.. weekend activity: gaming, surfing, tvs hangout: sch! house color: topaz->yellow sport to watch: err... tennis? badminton? sport to play: softball, netball animal: dolphin, dewgongs flower: daisy guy's name: dunnoe girl's name: EVELYN board game: dun play now party game: too much story from childhood: cindellera body part: i like myself for the way i'm and not wad i arent have you ever been on a train: ya been on a plane: ya. once been in a car accident: nope. i watch my way b4 crossing XD caused a car accident: NEVER run into a wall: hahas. nope burned a potato chip: they are meant to be eaten.. almost burned the house down: wa.. nope smoked: nope. been drunk: nope. been high: nope. broken the law: nope. burned a cd (if yes, the one above is yes): nope. kissed someone of the opposite sex: nope. kissed someone of the same sex: hahas. ya. it was a dare. frenched an animal: nope. made out: huh? had cyber sex: NEVER. gotten engaged: i'm onli 15. had an online relationship: nope. NEVER been rejected by a crush: he doesnt even noe.. loved: YES made yourself cry to get out of trouble: shld be nope cried in public: ya cried over a movie: oops =x yes fallen asleep in a movie theater: nope. given someone a bath: nope. been to a boarding school: nope. been home-schooled: nope. lost a valuable item: nope. i dun have 1 to start. bungee jumped: nope. skied: i wished to. met the president: nope. met a celebrity: yes. gotten a cavity: nope. shopped at abercrombie & fitch: wad's tt? made a prank call: NEVER skipped school: NEVER. i'm a good gal faked sick to get out of school: NEVER. i'm a good gal purchased something that you knew didn't fit: for wad? waste $ climbed a tree: nope. fallen from a tree: nope. broken a bone: nope. sprained anything: yes. a light one. passed out: nope. made yourself pass out: huh? how to? been to disney world: ya. been to a theme park (not disney): ya. in genting said i love you and meant it (not to a relative): i hope i've the courage to made a model volcano (working model): nope. made a clover leaf with your tounge: YUCKS! past what did you do yesterday:schholing memory you miss the most: him memory you want to forget: him something you regretted after it was done: hmm.. to let the chance slip by song you heard: i believe- tata young cd you bought: i nva buy b4.. thing you said: err... i dunnoe.. time you cried: over him~all over movie seen in a theater: one more chance thing you ate: porridge person who called: err.. esther nail polish shade worn: transparent time you showered: hahas. jus now la person who complimented you: P & C? at this moment what are you listening to: i believe-haven finish what are you wearing: t-shirt and pants what are you thinking: him what are you scared of most: grades how many people are on your buddy list: i dunnoe future occupation: teacher marriage site: somewhere romatic =P honeymoon: same as ^ place to live: s'pore kids: hahas. 2 ba.. car: sports car~ what are you doing tomorrow: slacking @ home do you think george bush will be reelected: maybe will there be a wwIII: depends. will politics ever be truthful: depends. will humanity snuff itself out: maybe can the gov. be changed: can. but i'm alrite wif the current ones. friends best friend: des, jun, ting, big jon, cindy, esther.. funniest: daddy JUNWEI! silliest: ME! to think of smt tt will never happen in reality loudest: so obvious! tt's me. quietest: hahas. loo loo in class.. craziest: me la calmest: dunnoe skinniest: loo loo, des best secret keeper: des! worst secret keeper: erm.. i dunnoe the one you have but don't want: dunnoe smartest: des~ preppiest: huh? pepiest: huh? most hyper: mei YAP SUJUN hottest: lp BELLE? weirdest: hahas. as wad des said.. me and her.. biggest pervert: daddy JUNWEI (abt the cows) most annoying: when ivan starts to crap during geo.. when all the ans is "god says so". no offence. shyest: loo loo most religious: err.. jerry? do you believe in heaven: yes hell: yes angels: yes! my angelic cheryl? devil: yes god: yes buddha: sort of aliens: hahas. not realli.. ghosts: yes spirit (soul): yes soulmates: yes reincarnation: veri love at first sight: not realli karma: huh? love in general: yes luck: YES! yourself: shld be crush: yes who and when was your first crush: y shld i say? any now: yes a celebrity crush: nope who do you want to be with right now: hahas. IMPOSSIBLE to happen whos number do you want: i ald got his who do you want to kiss: ... what is something you dont understand about the opposite sex: wad's they r thinking if you could go on a date with anybody, who would it be: HIM and of cos my best buds on scale of one to ten, how romantic are you: how i noe? first thing noticed about the opposite sex: personality, loooks, HEIGHT what do you look for personality-wise: somewad like mine's biggest turn on: personallity biggest turn off: attitude prob something thay wear that turns you on: anything something they wear that turns you off: err.. dunnoe the most romantic thing you want to happen to you: dunnoe the most romantic thing that has happened to you: err.. what do you wear on a coffee date: something nice and typical is it right to flirt if you're taken: NOPE! is cyber cheating: dots... are eyes the passegeway to the soul: huh? who would you like to take to the prom: some close guy-friends do you want to hug somebody right now: a nice big bear do you know what an aphrodisiac is: nope describe mellow: dunnoe melancholy: huh? the perfect date: hahas. the perfect mate: hahas. how m&m's are made: i dunnoe. jus like to eat.. why manhole covers are round: how i noe? one or the other coke/pepsi: coke sprite/7-up: 7-up (resberry) boxers/briefs: ... gold/silver: silver vanilla/chocolate: chocolate flowers/candy: candy book/magazine: book tv/radio: tv glass half empty/half full: half full democrat/republican: democrat colored pencils/markers: pencils coffee/tea: tea sun/moon: depends who i'm wif day/night: depends hot/cold: cold dog/cat: dogs button/zipper: i dun mind cotton/feather pillow: cotton blue/purple: light purple and sky blue plumber/trashman: neither jeans/shorts: jeaans long distance relationship/none: long dis relation mechanical/regular pencil: mechanical matt/ben: wad's the diff? that 70's show/simpsons: simpsons kelso/eric: huh? donna/jackie: huh? bart/lisa: huh? romeo/juliet: i dunnoe the story romantic comedy/thriller: both nsync/bsb: i onli listen b4 to nsync peanut butter/jelly: jelly waffles/pancakes: both letter/email: if secretive, den letter lor. or else email is fine florida/california: BOTH pizza/burgers: pizza hat/visor: wad's the diff? football/rugby: BOTH iceskating/blading: BOTH movie at home/in theater: depends who i'm wif first thing you think of when you hear yellow: either dirty things/ topaz red lipstick: ms picca =X socks: ankle socks cowtipping: huh? moulin rouge: tv shows greenland: the country iceland: the country harry potter: magic red: romatic? blackberry: juice? rose: hahas. rooster: haha. tt's one lor. she noe wad i mean =P taxes: govt bill clinton: huh? whipped cream: dunnoe george w. bush: the one who often appears in tv lollipops: meeeee , wanling dreams: some is horrible ones love: ... guys: boys south park: ... boy bands: linkin parks pengiuns: ME!!!! my nick girls: my babes thong: dunnoe death: dun wan to mention spoons: ppl born wif tt? junk mail: my email dairy: BLOG panties: as in underwears.. your father: my dad pizza: pizza hut and the ones my mum made.. britney spears: her song vitamin: the one who i used to take are you happy: learn to be contented sad: yes religious: err.. nope bitchy: NOPE crazy: haha. YES messy: YES mad: NOPE. jus purely crazy slacker: yes when i have nth to do nerd: NOPE bookworm: NOPE jock: huh? preppy: huh? selfish: maybe.. giving: dunnoe.. maybe. obsessive: maybe.. violent: sad to say, yes. calm: never peaceful: shld be mellow: dunnoe wad it means eccentric: nope caring: maybe.. untrustworthy: shld be can trust la.. loyal: to? patriotic: hahas. yes! i love s'pore miscellanoues what color is your jacket: black do you shave: .......... where: ................ what color is your razor: ........ what size is your bed: single what color crayon would you be: pink what are the last four digits of you phone number: 3836 feelings on abortion: killing of lives how lond does it take you to shower: 10 min what does your screenname mean: huh? thoughts on blonde pop stars in general: alrite who do you trust the most: my babes (: and close ppl is cussing a necessity in life: huh? how about coffee: huh? is the world screwed: yes what something you cant live without: when i ve some thoughts on smt.. what time did you fall asleep: depends.. 10-12.30 know what 69 means: my sign on cancer.. jus tt is tilted how about 143: nope can you live without a microwave: ya what do think about death: dun wan to mention where and when do you want to be married: somewhere romantic.. abt 20+ do you want to drop out of school: NEVER why is the sky blue: b'cos i like the way it is =P what is a good trait about yourself: dunnoe. character? what do you always think about: frens, studies, him what is wrong with your school: small, noisy what is right with your school: frens, teachers how do you react to change: it's fine do you talk to yourself: yes what is your opinion on love: smt i shld never be in right now can you afford to lose weight: i mus and i nid =P what color would you dye your hair: gold best thing anyone told you: dunnoe what is your reaction to someone telling you you're hot: hahas. but i'm NOT does being psycho appeal to you: ... if you wrote a book, what would it be about: life what would you change your name to: evelyn is nice enugh longest crush lasted how long: hahas.4 yrs...? time finished:4.50pm

2005-11-02T07:27:00.000+08:00

after the full day of slacking at home, i'm finally back to sch later.. though i'd choose to slack la.. but for the sake for my 'o', and for my future, everything is worth it.. (hahas. jus some form of expressions to cheer myself up for going sch when others are slacking right at home) BOOKS BOOKS BOOKS studying time `wheeee oh ya, congrates to mrs choon's baby boy!!

2005-10-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

thanks to all my dears.. >.< mel jie and all faithful readers of my blog.. wuhahaha. thanks for those concerns u've all been giving towards me (: i'm fine now. thanks. =D

2005-10-28T17:49:00.000+08:00

got back report bk today. fail one sub overall..by 3marks!!! grr.. and tt's of cos, my phys which i've NEVER done well before... next yr shld realli focus on it man. i've improved on many subj.. but as wad ms picca say, there is still rm for improvements. i mus strive harder to get JC scores and perphas, used tt to aim for a poly.. oh ya, i can go TPJC so long i've <2o so i nid to practise back all those (: but i doubt if i can pass the interview ): but i supposed, i'm aiming to s'pore poly (: *cheers my results (overall): eng: 56 chi: 68 Amath: 70 Emath: 71 P.Chem: 51 P.Phy: 47 Combined: 57 P.Geo: 52 CME: B IPW: A Percentage: 59.0 L1R4: 17 L1R5: 23 Conduct: EXCELLENT =P i wan to go into the edu course in poly!!! (: those kinds which i can go into the educating systems after i graduate.. b'cos my dream is to be a teacher!! whahaha... dun luff!!!! tt's jus my dream to be a good teacher.. (: our class recieved the most P & C certs in the whole sch!! well done ppl! *claps*

2005-10-27T16:49:00.000+08:00

mdm sim promised to be there. but she broke her promise )= how can she do that? *sighs*

2005-10-27T16:28:00.000+08:00

does anyone give a damn towards me and to wad i'm thinking or even to the things i'm doing?? i'm sooo peace off wif everything. no one seemed to care or even concern abt me today. maybe i'm jus like tis. maybe i'm jus a straight loner. maybe i jus have my own feelings, my own thoughts and tis place cant tolerate me and i jus cant find a place to fit myself in here. `sighs. my mood was pretty bad. i was the MC (wif des) of tis year's "fashion show design" where students came out wif creative ideas to decorate a clothing and the "models" wear them and parade. it was so irriating and tiring. no one appreciate our hardwork and effort. (hello, we had to repeat the same scripts for 7 times.) no one, absolute no one appreciate it. des and me wanted to shout and blast thru the mike saying "hello, we are here talking and can u jus shudup and listen to us???" i do badly wanted to do that. but i suppose, i jus cant. it was so sickening b'cos we didnt have any scripts to start and in the end we managed to have one last minute wif sickening handwritting and even the-doc-mosses cant even understand and SHE expects us to. wtf. the models are nice ppl. hahas. c(: and i teased one of them.. whahaha. after which i went back to class after all those unappreciated-work which wasted my time and money (as i cant go to the chinese enrichment course - and it cost 14 bucks) no one seemed to be bothered wif me. i came into my class like nobody's business. well, i admit there are some who care. but others jus simply cant be bothered. i mean i'm not those who crave for attention. but at least i jus wanted to noe and assure myself that there are at least some ppl who cares for me. but no. no one seemed to give a damn on me. i badly wanted to run away and hide myself. yet who knew? ABSOLUTELY NO ONE. i wanted to talk abt my prob. but there is no one to hear me out. no one who even looked at me straight and asked abt my prob. i wanted to asked her* whether she give a damn to wad i'm doing. if some day i asked her to choose btw me or that grp (i'm NOT jealous) i doubt she'll jus say them. i'm jus a big burden for her to carry. i tink she knows it herself too. she wanted to leave me alone but didnt dare to bring up the topic to me. ~ [perphas i'm jus a little sensitive] ~ i waited in the inter for u to arrive. i went to buy a carrot cake and waited for ur appearance. as expected, u came abt jus after i eaten the carrot cake and at first i decided not to wait for u anymore. at the same time, 28 came. i supposed i looked like an idiot standing there. dunnoe whether to give u wad i bought for u or jus leave it and gave u tmr (or when we r back once again) having a dilemma. and in the end, i decided jus to give u the things and jus walked away-w/o any form of tears, to be brave like wad i used to be. and i did. tt's wad happen. i dun mean to say i'm pushing the blame all towards u or to me. to me, no one is in the wrong. perphas we jus arent suitable for each other. perphas tis is jus a conflict in frenship. i dunnoe. i went home straight after that. i admit, i have that attitude. i slam all my hse and rm door; wadever doors there are. my mom was so surprise. i suppose she knew, definitely there's smt wrong.. cos i dun realli do those. and she asked. i refused to talk to her anything till now. is like she doesnt even know or cared abt my probs. she jus doesnt gib me security. `sorry. the sickening dentist was not opened AGAIN. and i'm so irriated. i'm not going anymore. smt i tink wth am i so nice for? giving off them and letting ppl noe i'm always there for them, be it up and down yet, do i even get back the least bit of kindness? it's so unworth. i wanted to make ppl happy, so long they are wif me and even away frm me. yet, i've already tried my best but wad do i ever get back? all those stupid frenship probs and backstabbing. i've had enugh of all those. we are getting our report books tmr. and i'm so bloody scared. i want to be promoted!!! we get our booklist today. oh man.. tis'd mean wasting $.. *sians* sure hse will have quarrels de. we have our new timetable for the extra week. i dun say i looked forward to seeing the teachers la.. but it's jus for our own good. wad can i do? fuck. shudup. leave me alone.

2005-10-25T15:37:00.000+08:00

we didnt have any schoolings today (which i tink i rather have them) because we had sit 3h straight right in the morning after the morning assembly. we had a science programme which was pretty boring.. i've learnt some things la.. but i was veri veri boring. i bet there are alot of ppl sleeping. i saw jerry did that =P after which we had our recess and after that, it was the math period.. everyone was slacking.. onli some "guai" people (like me) were doing their work.. after that, we went to hall AGAIN. tis time for some sickening talks again.. smt on money... and we were delayed! so we went back late... after which me and esther go and eat at long john before she had to rush home. i was totally dry when i was out of the bus, in the bus-stop. and i find that the bus driver was pretty nice (: he jus open the front door as he knew that ppl would be drenched if they left by the back one. the wind was sooo strong that my umbrella almost break off =( luckily i wasnt flying off toogether =P and finally, when i reached the void deck of my block, i was jus like luo tang ji (wet frm head to toe) `i hate rainy days!

2005-10-24T20:05:00.000+08:00

piece if good news (: I'M CHANGING MY PHONE SOON! perphas in the dec holis cos it'd mean discount. and mind u, i'm paying for it. so i nid to save *sobs* esther came to my hse to watch ghost movie =X we watch a NC16 show!!! -the wig- and -the maid- it's soooo nice.. after which we do amath tys (: so nice hor.. we're good kids =P i'm so scared of today's promotion day... i dun wan to retain or change class.. i jus wan to remain in 4e3 in 2oo6... `sighs

2005-10-23T16:49:00.000+08:00

it was quite stupid actually. doremon and i went to dhouby ghout jus for tuition. and the journey took us like 1h jus to get there. and i still nid to go back. which means, i'll have to travel 2h on mrt to go and head back home. we even got to the wrong building as both of us we the first time going and we didnt even know where it was. it was ME who find the map =P (or rather i drew out one nice one) we overshot the building as we thot both were the same building. being normal person, we went up to the fourth floor. looking at those room number, we could tell we are wrong. and so we went to the first floor and asked for direction lor.. finally, we got back the the right one.. it was that we didnt c the entrance jus merely cock eye and not retarded (: the people there are damn clever. most taking HCL or are in super good schools. *sighs* the lesson was pretty boring *yawns*

2005-10-22T11:51:00.000+08:00

things are getting alittle better. told my parents on my SA results liao luckily outcome not wad i expect they jus told me to study harder seems wierd isnt it? they seemed to be more understanding and less strict maybe we have grown up i looked thru the past entries i realised this: in the past, i hate u so much for the rumours and for no reason now, i'm beginning to miss u u used to care so much on me now u dun anymore when can i learn to forget u since there's someone else in u i've to try and help myself it's so hard to <3 smiley, i know u'll never come upon tis post or even noe u r my smiley =P. i know u r good towards me. but as wad i've said in the sms, i dun wan to hurt, i dun wan to be hurt as well. i tink it's impossible for us to be together. at the most, we can onli me veri veri good frens. both of us perphas wanted companion. but frens will work up itself nicely rite? i dun c the nid to be together. perphas i still have my fears. i'm sorry. i'm so nice to help mdm ho do the work for permutations and combinations (:

2005-10-22T08:40:00.000+08:00

i looked thru the archives of my past post. suddenly, i realised how much lonely i'm. i've been having frequent quarrels wif ppl ard me and i found out i've been failing lots of tests and exams. i shldnt have taken much notice of u. i shldnt be wasting my time of tis kind of puppy-love relationship. i shld be concentrating on my results; for my o next yr. so perphas, i have to be veri hardworking the next yr and in the 2 weeks of extra lessons. i wont care even if frens of other sch are mean and started laughing. well, TPSS is great. b'cos the teachers are sooo hardworking to help us. (: so, being good student of the sch, we shld study hard =P i realised i'm been rather unhappy regarding the class committee stuffs. i guess i wont make myself involve in them next yr. and of cos, to put in "nice" words, i shld let others have a chance since i've been involve in them for 2years now.

2005-10-21T17:23:00.000+08:00

got back all my eoy papers. all the results are fucking lousy. fail 2 subjects. phys and geo. it's not as if i didnt study. they are my main focus. i forsake play during weekends jus to study phys [before also got la. not last minute ok?] and geo is the worst. the greatest impact for me. it's totally like @!$#!^%#*& i studied 3 weeks before the exams and constantly study like everyday lor. and i fail the worst. mr chew say mus understand wad the question is asking. cos me and yongli is dun understand the question so in a way, all is rubbish; absolute rubbish like wad he says. he says we are the weaker ones. *sighs* no wonder when he asked who's estimated marks is fail that time, he's like giving me a wierd expression. i shld have expected it lor.. i never expect myself to fail. i expected a b4 when we were estimating our marks. and the diff is alot. i suppose yongli is feeling jus as bad as me. i wont say my marks. but mine's the same as yongli and another person.. wanna know then go ask them lor. i saw mdm sim outside GO today. didnt wanted to call her. maybe b'cos of my marks. *sighs* realli wanted to get good marks for geo b'cos of her, myself (: guess i jus have to work double harder for it. glad to c my chem pass though i noe there r lots of simpathy marks given. emath are my pride now. the highest among all subjects. amath results sux. dunnoe wad happen in the exams. i thot it was pretty easy. lose to him [the person mentioned b4]. `sighs. did badly wanted to.. chiben top again.. congrates! 1A, 1B, 4C, 1D, 1E. thanks des (: hope u will win yzk in o next yr! jiayous thanks daddy and mummy (: i promise to work hard for next exams thanks my dearest 3e3 for those who encourage me eg. ter thanks smiley (:

2005-10-20T16:46:00.000+08:00

i'm super lazi and tired now.. i dunnoe wad to do except to blog. maple cannot play lorr.. maintainance.. and i'm bored *yawns smiley is out for job interview and it arent nice to disturb. so i decided not to sms him and let myself be bored.. he promised to sms me de lorr.. and he didnt =( maybe haven his turn lorr. wad can i say? even he go find gf also liddat. jus that i wont sms lorr.. [like mr d liddat- i noe who his gf is.. haha] mom's frens coming my hse for entertainments affairs => majong.. which to me = loud noise; great pollutions. decided to go esther's hse if mom allows. aniway, she jus leave few blogs away frm me. =) [high chances] i'm jus soooo bored. cant blame. she the one who can does silly things and can make me do wif her *i mus be mad* and can realli make me happi :) i re-emphasis, i'm not a les. though esther thinks i'm.. dots. i was super high and i decided to chiong my amath tys and revision exercises in the textbook last night and jus now when i was waiting for jie and sms-ing smiley (: dunnoe wad strikes me. suddenly have the mood to study hard for o and i totally dun wan to go out shopping [though he asked me] and i realli wan to study.. and do well. maybe b'cos eoy papers as wad i expected will not be of good grades.. surely scoldings and naggings from teachers and parents will start which means no gaming; no everything. jus books and is TEXTbooks.. those that are wordly and i'll have a headache reading them. i didnt do any bits of my essays. i was too tired to do them. jus let them pile up the mean time. i've jus had my eoy lor. and he's understanding de lorr XD *i supposed so* no way man! it's gaming time.. at least till today. tmr will be a killer. we are getting back our scripts tmr. i hope i'll do well *seems not* at least get good eng, chi, phy, sh and amath marks. my piority are those.. =D i dun say i'm not scared. frankly, i'm veri veri veri veri veri veri scared

2005-10-20T14:16:00.000+08:00

i wondered to myself today.. -case 1- if that day u care for me a little bit more if u didnt badmouth me if u didnt ps me if u jus let me a little perphas things will never end up like wad it is ~~now~~ i dun say i'm totally wrong nor totally rite but i tink it'll take 2 hands to clap -case 2- if u didnt accuse me of nothing perphas we'll be closer now like how we r in maple always together but u didnt noe and blame me for nothing at first ve feelings yet u destroy them all jus wif ur words we wont ever be the same as wad we used to be anymore jus purely frens now and in future good luck for ur interview today =) -case 3- how i wished u would know how much i <3> but u didnt and maybe dun even care u jus wan good grades and leave here u didnt care abt those who care or <3 style="color: rgb(255, 153, 255);">u r jus selfishless thinking of urself but i dunnoe y i'd fell so deeply in <3 and even believe ur promise do u mean it? or even intend to keep them? if u dun, y promise at first? i'm sooo confused but so much things happening abt tis few days yet i've absolutely have no one to talk to except jie but she's too busy wif her stuffs btw meishi, amy and angela cant bring myself to "torture" her wif my prob i used to think and believe i'm happy, contented wif my beloved ones yet one by one, they left me alone in tis world to solve my prob myself how can they ever be so heartless? maybe they jus refused to care or dun even bothered for someone like me the attitude prob person maybe tt's the reason :( *sighs i'm sorry i cant be perfect

2005-10-19T01:30:00.000+08:00

knn. i was nice to wait for u and u didnt noe. stupid jie jie. her sms was "coming home le la" in 1opm and den it was 1.3oam and she wasnt back home lor. wtf. she said she comin back from orchard on amy's bike. not pretty fun cos she can take 3.5h to reach home. even take mrt cum (worst to worst) 2o min walk home also wont be so long lorr. !*@#%&*& she even say wad.. u got so nice meh? surely is play com de. and i didnt at all. shit. great things happen: maple increase 3 lvl in 3 days.. ahha =) look at the time :)

2005-10-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

now i'm so addicited to maple.. but it's alrite cos it's holidays liao.. maybe b'cos it's dune to who i play wif la =) *winks* [maple lg] haha.. nice time out there wif everything free =) thanks alot arh.. or else i sure still play pq..den have to wait long long. thanks for guiding me ard (though i always get lost) ppl, wan to add me then go ahead lo.. me aqualia. character: evelyn180790.. mage. pathetic level of 22. wanna pq also can. but c where maple lg online 1st anot =P if he online den sorri.. i'm still worried.. i dunnoe who to side now. i rather take no stand.. but i dunnoe if i can. both of them realli cares abt me (and i noe *thanks).. how?how? no one can help me except for me to help myself.. i think i'll be dead. oh ya, big jon i cant tell u la. it's a promise to her*.. sorri. i dunnoe whether they mean wad the both of them said in her blog. but..somehow i feel that all those are fake. die liao. god, let me find u cos i wan to noe how shld i solve it so as not to hurt the both of my pals =)

2005-10-17T16:06:00.000+08:00

exams are over! time to celebrate and have fun. but to think of essay questions time as well.. *sighs* and to worry on my results :( wuman is sick in hospital wif dengue fever. hope u get well soon :) i'm getting confused once again. frenship probs are rising once again.. and i knew wad's the prob. but i cant say anything abt it. i've promise. i'm not going to care abt all this anymore. i dun give a damn on all tis. solve them urself. u left me there once wif all those prob. so i shld do the same cos i'm never nice.

2005-10-16T18:26:00.000+08:00

i saw des's blog and immediately went to fiona's blog. no doubt i still vividly rmb kenneth. those old days when i was online; seeing his messages; how he cheered me up when i was feeling down. in fact, ken is jus like an older brother towards me. i dunnoe y i'd say this.. but maybe b'cos i dun have any brothers. and surprising he was the one which could cheer me up (besides certain guys i've met) whenever my nick seems some kind of unhappiness. he would be there to talk to me and asked me about the prob i've faced. whenever the name of victoria sch is mentioned to me, i can onli recall mike and kenneth.. i thot to myself wondering y god have to be cruel and let all of us cried and miss him? and of cos, let him live this world when he's jus a mere teenager? but looking things in a different way, perphas it's a form of blessing in disguise for kenneth perphas a form of release for him. i dunnoe. i realli miss those times when we chat on msn. [if u guys thot he's like my bf/wad, it's not. he's my fren fren. and he died few years back :(] des, i dunnoe how to face u. so, i decided to blog instead. many times i wanted to sms u instead but i didnt noe wad to say so i gave up. i appreciate ur kindness and ur sms-es when i was feeling down and everything. u gave me advice and hold my fall each time when i was on sudidal. i doubt if i still can find "girl frens" who could care as much as how u did. now, i can offer u nothing but to cry wif u each time and to lend u my shoulder. thanks for everything u have been providing me =D http://img296.imageshack.us/img296/2284/p40sn.gif http://img296.imageshack.us/img296/1926/p83jz.gif those words which i wanted u to noe. hope u do. [click to c those pics]

2005-10-15T21:49:00.000+08:00

exams are finally ending. though still ve lots of undone work (like essays and sch stuffs) it's quite a nice break for me. but one thing.. i'm fear. i fear of disappointment for my exams. and tt's often wad i'll be thinking right at this moment. since the day when i realised how much results matter to me, i'm always scared of exams and sometimes even tests. one example will be: whenever mr chew came into class holding a stack of wad-it-seems-like-test-papers, i'd be so stressed up and my brains will be refused to function; i'll refused to listen to wad he's saying in class. i did make an effort to study. right now. tis year. i studied like i never did; paying attention to all subjects and topics; whether i like it anot. but my brain totally refused to accept those knowledge that is laid right before me. *sighs* [when can i grow into someone who is clever; and not nerdy] i stayed back in sch on fri for phys. i pon the last session and so decided to go.. we went in late cos we went to eat at kfc first.. den we slowly walked back to sch (but seems like i'm the one running.. cos i dragged big jon to go wif us).. den after which we stayed back to ask mdm lim lots of questions (and jon ps us) den it was like 5++.. saw mr chew.. den was pretty shag. it's like he'll remind me of the eoy paper and den the test which we got back when he scolded us "absolute rubbish". i cant forget how he scold. he didnt even scold us when i was in sec 1, the young; ignorant and talkative class of mine. i'm pretty scared of mon. i've phys and geo.. *sighs* they r pretty tough for me. i've guess i'll flunked this eoy papers pretty badly. luckily, ms picca said that i wont stay back. tt's a positive sign i supposed.

2005-10-13T19:48:00.000+08:00

i'm finally back in blogging. and i hope this entry shld be long :)) those papers which i've taken were pretty tough. the worst were chem and geo. i've never done such a tough paper b4.. when i flip open the paper, my eyes nearly popped out. imagine that.. popped eyes. look ard me den ppl doing them liao. looked up at the time.. 1o mins had passed.. den i panic.. quickly do.. and anyhow lo.. the rest were quite alrite la. everyone complained how tough was the geo paper.. except terence of cos! he wrote 16 pages long. can anione imagine??? i onli write abt 8 pages if i not wrong. i tink the girls didnt do veri good.. cos all like dunnoe how to do.. but i was quite dispppointed at amath... it was like i've lost 11 marks... and i did badly wanted to get higher marks.. not to chiben la.. is someone else.. history paper was quite "chim".. i onli knew how to do the 2nd part of seq.. and the first part was horrible. i wrote barely half page.. but the second was better.. i wrote abt 2 pages long.. (as wad i did usually) ss paper was abt the same as history paper.. i noe one and dunnoe the other.. *sighs* i did a horrible thing. i asked esther to drink cindy's bt. i feel it was horrible la.. den i asked esther to drink; telling her how "nice" it tasted.. den she drink it; trusting my instinct.. den i was luffing non-stop.. and i didnt notice there was a hole in front of me (cos i was walking on the grass patches) den i fell flat. and twice.. cos i lost my momentam.. it was super embrassing lorr... and den alot of ppl c lorr. *no face liao* we ate at kfc. and i saw shawnniee, cherry, yi kai and small jon.. i was scolded for nothing. it was like wth lorr.. i didnt do anything wrong and i was accused by benkok and scolded as well. is like i went to buy my food first. naturally, i would wait for the rest la.. budden i kind of make the cashier pissed off la.. cos she misheard my orders.. den was like she's angry la.. and when i went back to my seat (where benkok was there ald) and he kind of angry.. and say i never wait for them. fine. i'm not going to explain. so i didnt say anyting.. jus smsing esther there. no one in my 'gan' family had ever scolded me before. oh ya. i forget to add on. i saw mdm sim today.. and i complain of the tough paper for geo.. she didnt help me :( onli say i didnt study enughh.. *sighs* den after that like that lorr.. mus study!!!! (i'm not a les, mind u. i'm jus close wif her :)) i've been having funni dreams for the past few days. dream on o8/1o. i dream mr d came my house and tutor me. after that.. he was fidgeting at my hse the hello kitty tissue box. haha. pretty wierd. den after that.. i dream the soonlee came to me and told me he's taking 'o' level. it's wierd cos i dun talk to him.. and is like to tell me.. dream on 11/1o. was when i was having a nap and den i dreamt on mdm phua and mdm sim. it's wierd to think of mdm phua..cos like not so close ma.. den mdm sim like normal la.. :) it was like it was raining and i lend mdm phua my file (c her first; at carpark) den after that mdm sim came.. suddenly woke up by my sister.. wonder wad's next.. haha. den on 1o/1o. i dreamt i was in hospital ward 335. and actually, dere wasnt this ward.. it was totally like "haunted" cos wad happen was like i applied to change ward due to loud noises at night.. den i told a nurse.. she looked at me wif blur vision.. and said.. there wasnt this ward no.. i was so horrified and couldnt slp that night... wierd wierd wierd! it's veri veri long entry.. and i'm lazy cos.. i'm done wif my blogskin. hope it's nice.. do comment at my taggie :) i'm done wif cindy's blog. i'm done wif esther's maquee for pics all in one day.. tt's today. gtg. wan to study emath :)

2005-10-12T16:07:00.000+08:00

fye is going to end.SOON.which means no more sufferings and stress on wad to study; wanting to get good marks =D yet. i've to be stress on my grades that will be out. and of cos, my essays which i o ppl =X geography is a killer man. if can pass i happy liao. i lost 11 marks in amath!!! grr.. nvm. still got chance of a1! =D blog more soon.. currently doing a new skin

2005-10-10T16:37:00.000+08:00

exams r here finally. some days which i can go home early.. such as today!!! can go home at 12 liao.. it's like super early.. went to shop ard for some present before going to qi ji to eat... the ppl there were lots and me, esther and jovene managed to find a seat.. yet.. it was pretty outside and luckily we did get a space =D thank guys for walking wif me at tamp.. we saw chen chuan (or rather the ex-2e6s members) alot of time and it's somewad like "yuan jia lu zai" haha.. den i saw iris at tm basement staircase.. hmm.. pretty surprise lorr.. is like i didnt go there b4.. yet can c her today... i ate pretty fast for esther's sake.. she was meeting her fren and she was going to be late... i never ate so fast b4.. after which i even sent her home. i cant believe that i'm so nice. *sobs* eng paper shld be considered alrite lorr.. some 'o' level style. but the summary was totally difficult. i've never encounter such difficult summary.. it was like totally no points for me to write about.. hope i can pass wif good marks.. ^.^ ss paper today was super chim. it wasnt actually difficult.. but somehow time was running out and tt's explains my horrible handwritting. it was realli veri jia liat as i dun realli write in that way.. i had one hour and i had to do 2 more sbq and 1 seq. poor time management man.. so wad even if i'm willing to let go of the past and forgive u? to be wad we used to be in the past would be too difficult.. for u've brought me c the light; led me away from those darkness and brought be high up in the sky; landing on clouds.. yet, u hit me.. u did not let me land on earth again but u drop me into hell where i'm all alone w/o any help or frens. i wont ever forget when u go ard and badmouth in front of my used-to-be frens which they even believed the untruthful things and left me all alone. u say things that r not true on me but did i ever did anything wrong towards u? i dunnoe and i cant be bothered anymore :)) charmed life i'm having.. no nid anything else except trust, love, care and concern from everyone =D oh ya, tis msg is for esther: i wont b.cum les as wad u think. anyway, i'm straight. i look for guys and not girls lorr.. wad makes u tink that way? hmm. it doesnt mean that cutting myself=les rite? *sighs* it's some other reason.